Black people and Mental health.

[Paradise50]

this thread is needed..

man i feel like am losing my mind just been around these racist folks...like like at times i just want to snap at them for any little thing like,holding their bags work issues etc..etc...its like damn i feel like a criminal just been me walking down the street minding my business, but these folks are so scare of a negro that now i feel like i gotta avoid walking behind them or near them in store....

on top of it am a so called christian, so it makes it double taxing..one side of me is i need to forgive and let bygones be bygones but at other times is like f these folks. Like i try to ignored it but am at a stage where i notice the smallest hint of disrespect or racism...living in a country like Costa rica where its like 98% white is even more annoying since black folks are far in between. guess i gotta man up but damn

You got to get to know yourself better and accept that the majority of cacs are racist. Then you have to TRULY be secure because cacs love to bait us into reacting so they can play victim. A lot of people say "man I ain't worried about what they think/say" but they're lying to themselves because they do.

 

[Yinny]

Anybody made it to med script for weed yet?

 

[Paradise50]

Random but I've been meditating a lot more recently while using the Headspace app. It's pretty dope and learning how to be self aware of thought and feelings has been fun. It's not easy but 20 days in and I've already noticed changes. Kinda like exercising your mind in a way.

 

[Thanos]

Good thread,I keep getting this looming feeling ( kind of hard to describe)when I'm social settings(offline/online) etc hanging around in an established group.

I feel like an outsider and can't click/connect with folks like I used to. It's like I'm just there. I'm hanging with entertaining individuals but it feels hollow . And I'm just becoming more recluse and that sort feeding more into. I keep wondering is it me or the spaces I go to.

 

[KeysT]

Good thread,I keep getting this looming feeling ( kind of hard to describe)when I'm social settings(offline/online) etc hanging around in an established group.

I feel like an outsider and can't click/connect with folks like I used to. It's like I'm just there. I'm hanging with entertaining individuals but it feels hollow . And I'm just becoming more recluse and that sort feeding more into. I keep wondering is it me or the spaces I go to.

Maybe change up your surroundings bro. Take a vacation and get around some good people. Drink some water and exercise to get your mind off things. It’s anxiety. I get The same feeling sometimes.

 

[Bboystyle]

Highly reccommend the 4-7-8 breathing exercise. shyt helped me through my anxiety attacks. Google it

 

[letti cook]

ugh..nevermind

 

[Coolin']

If you need to speak to anyone, we are here for you. You can definitely PM me whenever you're ready.

I'm doing better than I was months ago. I have days that are better than others, but overall things are looking up. I'm just taking it one day at a time.

I'm really glad you're doing better. That's all one can really do is take it one day at a time . And yeah, there are times (this past week) where I realize I'm still the "black sheep" of the family. It sucks sometimes because when I feel alone I really am alone. I have my gf but I hate appearing too "in my feelings" lol which is bad in itself but it's the truth. Also in turn, because I was the black sheep, I grew up not knowing how to form bonds so I have very few relationships with other people. Most of the time I'm good, it's just last week was one of those weeks. Really don't have any other outlet to vent and people understand than here.

 

[brownsugah]

I'm really glad you're doing better. That's all one can really do is take it one day at a time . And yeah, there are times (this past week) where I realize I'm still the "black sheep" of the family. It sucks sometimes because when I feel alone I really am alone. I have my gf but I hate appearing too "in my feelings" lol which is bad in itself but it's the truth. Also in turn, because I was the black sheep, I grew up not knowing how to form bonds so I have very few relationships with other people. Most of the time I'm good, it's just last week was one of those weeks. Really don't have any other outlet to vent and people understand than here.

I can understand the feeling completely. Do you have any siblings? If so, how many? I know you said that you don’t want to appear too much in your feelings with your girlfriend, but have you tried confiding in her before? She would probably be the first person to try to open up to. I dunno how you guy’s relationship dynamic is or how long you guys have been together, but I’m thinking she would be understanding and there for you with open arms. Loneliness sucks, and I am a witness of that. Feeling like you can’t confide in anyone (including the ones you need the most like family) is the worst. But I’m glad that this thread is here for people like us who need an outlet.

Btw, I wanted to ask another question.. but I'd rather shoot you a PM if that's ok?

 

[Coolin']

I can understand the feeling completely. Do you have any siblings? If so, how many? I know you said that you don’t want to appear too much in your feelings with your girlfriend, but have you tried confiding in her before? She would probably be the first person to try to open up to. I dunno how you guy’s relationship dynamic is or how long you guys have been together, but I’m thinking she would be understanding and there for you with open arms. Loneliness sucks, and I am a witness of that. Feeling like you can’t confide in anyone (including the ones you need the most like family) is the worst. But I’m glad that this thread is here for people like us who need an outlet.

Btw, I wanted to ask another question.. but I'd rather shoot you a PM if that's ok?

Even worse, I do have siblings. We're cool with each other but it's not the type of relationship where we call each other is discuss things. Growing up our mom didn't really develop that family/childhood bond that most siblings have. They usually discuss personal things with their spouses, same as me . And yeah, I talk to my gf about things sometimes but not a lot. She has a seemingly perfect family...especially compared to mine so that makes it hard, too. It's sad to say that I'm kinda used to being the loner person but sometimes it just gets hard.

And yeah, shoot

 

[brownsugah]

Even worse, I do have siblings. We're cool with each other but it's not the type of relationship where we call each other is discuss things. Growing up our mom didn't really develop that family/childhood bond that most siblings have. They usually discuss personal things with their spouses, same as me . And yeah, I talk to my gf about things sometimes but not a lot. She has a seemingly perfect family...especially compared to mine so that makes it hard, too. It's sad to say that I'm kinda used to being the loner person but sometimes it just gets hard.

And yeah, shoot

I understand. Is your girlfriend’s family pretty close knit? How would you describe your family dynamic in comparison?

I’m sending it now.

 

[Iceson Beckford]

Was dissociating heavy today

Was late for college and everything went wrong from there

Tomorrow is another day though

 

[Mastamimd]

I'm isolated again. The voices are back. It's like some demonic shyt that I can't explain. Damn near the devil type shyt. Voice in my head saying there's nothing I can do about it. It's fukked. I tried. I don't know.

 

[Neuromancer]

Good thread,I keep getting this looming feeling ( kind of hard to describe)when I'm social settings(offline/online) etc hanging around in an established group.

I feel like an outsider and can't click/connect with folks like I used to. It's like I'm just there. I'm hanging with entertaining individuals but it feels hollow . And I'm just becoming more recluse and that sort feeding more into. I keep wondering is it me or the spaces I go to.

Do you have any passions?

 

[Neuromancer]

I'm isolated again. The voices are back. It's like some demonic shyt that I can't explain. Damn near the devil type shyt. Voice in my head saying there's nothing I can do about it. It's fukked. I tried. I don't know.

what have you tried?