btw breh put down that alcohol and drugs stop using as a crux.
Stop dealing drugs as well, there comes a time you gotta stop blaming what happaned with you and your ex for the situation you are in.
Your 27, your blink your eyes and be 32 still sthinking of what was, doing and selling drugs and drinking every day.
Every situation you come across in life regadless if your in the dirt or in the mountains you can use it to better yourself, come out of this stronger, reborn, refresh
its good to get things of your chest but your writing these long ass paragraphs an your ex out there prob snapchatting and loling with the brehs
you had something good and now its gone and drugs, alcohol, drug dealer money, sleepign with strippers aint removing that is it. so give it up man your still young, it aint over for you yet to get something good again