So either way, you were destined for a life of crime? In your opinion what should have been the appropriate punishment for your actions?
Had I gotten charged and sentenced as a juvenile my punishments would have been far less steep, wouldn't have had an adult record as a teenager and that could have enabled me to move forward quicker and easier in my life...
I don't spend those 3½ years in prison which means I don't get my GED in prison at 20, I get it on the outside before that. I don't wait until I'm 26 to pursue higher education, I might have that desire sooner...
I don't have a criminal record that inhibits my ability to get in school and get jobs in the first place, which means I probably find a passion and interests sooner. Those 3½ years I spend becoming a hardened criminal would instead be spent advancing like other people my age, dating, education, developing a work history, maturing...
Charge and sentence me as a juvenile which gives me a sealed record when I turn 18 and complete my juvenile probation. Juvenile probation often is attached to education requirements...
Look, I probably was gonna be who I was gonna be regardless, but the point is that option wasn't presented to me. I can see an alternate reality where that brush with the law motivates me away from the streets but I didn't get the option at that moment. And once you hit the penal system as a teenager in adult worlds its hard to break from that mindset because your existence is about getting a name in a world of guys bigger and more established than you. You go back to the streets with credibility if you weren't a hoe inside---->literally the first few weeks I was out was cats talking about how I went hard inside and I was bulletproof--->and even if you were a hoe inside those types head back out avenging their prison Ls on nikkas on the streets...
All that shyt did was supercharge the battery in my back to be a bigger gangster than anyone around me...
I had a bunch of felonies, can't remember exactly but it was around 15, that I ended up pleading down to one charge anyway. Didn't know that could happen them, my initial court date told me I was facing like 30 years or something. Knowing that in retrospect, I sat in the county jail for 10 months, even though I didn't get charged as a youth I still could have gotten convicted as one, where they could have given me time served with a year or two of probation, or sent me a juvie house to do a few more months to make it a year or 15 or 18 month sentence, then get out no probation or maybe 6 months. I mean possibilities are plenty, the point is the option was never presented to me...
I was 17 and my co-d was 16 abd we were just doing silly shyt listening to an older nikka who had beef with his baby momma. The same week we git arrested they tried to pin a rape on me and a body in him that occurred in the same nights we were kicking in doors...
I wasn't developed enough to swerve off the 28-ish year old guy who was sending us on this dummy mission, so for damn sure I wasn't developed enough to understand the consequences of if I got caught. I'm telling you I didn't know, you don't have to guess, I'm telling you I didn't and i was with many other brothers with similar stories...
Far as I know my co-d went pretty straight after getting out, heard some years back he ran some guns for awhile but not on no major shyt, just enough to eat. But he's another example of if he's charged as a youth he maybe never goes that route. We were on different yards at different times but the influence of all these older dudes around you is heavy as fukk when you're that young...
