This the part that's killin me. I'm the youngest fukk here right now, all my colleagues are 10 years deep in the company...maan...ALL of them are fukked up. In the head. All of them gossipin around all day, tryin to back stab whoever, all of them asking me "questions" low key probably tryin to catch me off guard, all of them always talkin same topics...
These people are dead man. They given their best years in life to be in this fukkin safe environment. And the results are...well...awful. I don't wanna end up like that.
I may be completely crazy but not a day goes by that I dont think about quitting and just going full throttle 100% grind on my hobby, see where it takes me. Even if I make minimal money from it, which I believe I could in todays crazy ass world...I'd still take that over making money by living like a drone surrounded by walkin zombies.
As for marriage...I do not have clarity right now. I just dont. And I feel guilty about it. A lot of my friends got married, makes me feel as if I'm slackin.
That same shyt your father told you - work ain't supposed to be fun - I feel it also applies to marriage. Put up and get married and don't fantasize about marriage being "ideal" - same with the job.