I won't even lie. I suffer from a lot of anxiety but I still smoke loud. I quit for a long time last year and have only recently began smoking it again. But I'm not going to sit here and pretend the shyt doesn't make paranoid as all fukk and force me to think about shyt that might depress me.
And I can't even front. Sometimes I like that paranoid feeling. Keeps me on my toes.
I tell people all the time that marijuana is a teacher...it ain't really a paranoid feeling that you're having IMO, it's that you are accessing more of yourself that sits behind your conscious mind.
Problem is we got nikkas out here "smoking loud" without the "shamans" within the culture that actually show you how this shyt can be applied besides getting "turnt up". In our modern world we live in such disharmony with nature that for many of us this is the only communion with it that we can easily access.
You wanna kick back and smoke for purely for fun and this plant is trying to TEACH you something...in true western fashion we would rather treat the symptoms, dead the nerves and numb the pain when what really needs to be done is balance and integration, we need to FEEL to HEAL. This is how we get to a point where nikkas can make fun of someone that are in the throws of a descent, there's such a lack of empathy, especially for black folks with mental health issues, therapy, psychology and "weakness" associated with the same
Shut up
....Big Sean aint talkin bout suicide
