Depression finally won

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I always wonder what is so excruciating that you'd rather literally break your body apart and die a painful death.

Holy shyt Breh. OP.

So. No need to explain. I just would like to offer that you can do other things besides driving into vehicles or over drops at speed.

If it's something that's going on now

Bounce. Just drive to another state and.. whatever. Do something else for a lil while. Hike the Appalachian Trail or sumn. Even if a bear gets you: mission accomp. But perhaps you'll live and be ready to return to life after you put a few squirrels on the fire.

If it's something that happened before

See if you can find a way to stop dwelling on it. Simple shyt like a hobby can carry you through wee hours when you might normally be stewing about past hurts. Build something that will take a while to build.

If not, the Appalachian Trail awaits.

Before you literally stop your own heart, just try something drastic (and positive). When you get done you'll be too tired to feel bad.

Like someone else said, be grateful you don’t understand. Depression knows no gender, creed or color. It doesn’t care how much money you make, how many kids you have, how much you love your family and friends, or how other people view your success. It’s a fukking monster, and if you don’t take steps to deal with it, it will consume you until you really believe taking your own life is the best way to deal with it. You don’t care about how much it might hurt if you do it. You just want that shyt to go away. If you’ve never experienced it, you’ll never understand.

I applaud threadstarter for being brave enough to share his story with us. And I hope he was able to get some help. Prayers all the way the fukk up. Mental illness is not a fukking game.
 

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If you're black. If you're white and still struggling, you're a fukkup. Which is why I don't give money to homeless white people. This country gives you the answers to the test years before you take it. If you still end up lacking, :francis:
Depression is a bytch regardless of the race of the person.
 

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i tried to walk into on coming traffic tonight tried to drive off the road i'm gone check myself in at this point i wouldn't even fight for my life if something were to happen to me. i dont want to cause no pain and don't want my kids to cry but at this point i just want the suffering to stop. i even tried to start a fight with a motorcycle club and they wasn't going dude told me they not doing my dirty work. fukk it time to go to the hospital

 
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Depression is a bytch regardless of the race of the person.

No disagreement there. I just feel much of the depression we feel, as black people, can be attributed to the perpetual confusion we feel after being born into a society erected off the back of our enslaved ancestors. A lot of black people don't want to confront just how fukked up our situation is. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't reflect on just how I came to be and feel :mindblown:
 
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