Are you saying that you have no control over your life and whatever is going to happen...will?
So why even bother I guess? Am I interpreting you correctly?
Depends on the context. Existentially, everything is happening at once, so no you don't have control, all possibilities are already happening "now". In day to day life, I pretend and "believe" in the illusion, that what I does matters. But in actuality it doesn't (it's already happened). I'm getting off on tangents now, but if we can figure out how to jump dimensions in absolute infinity, then maybe what we do actually matters (because we can choose our own path). Currently though, I can't do that. So yes, everything pretty much doesn't matter. It is what it is.
Yes, I often ask myself "why bother?"