Do You Know Anyone Close to Have Committed Suicide?

[damaddwebba]

My best friend from HS lil brother. He was maybe 5 years younger than us and would always tag along to play hoops and stuff. He did a tour in Afghanistan after hs and when he came back he had alot of issues with PTSD. He was depressed, GF left him and was living with his parents and was going through it because his older brother went away on a 55 year bid for murder.

So he ended up shooting himself in front of the front door at his parents house. It was really sad as his parents basically lost 2 kids in the span of a couple of months. He was only 21

 

[Geek Nasty]

An MC tried to trade bars with me...once

 

[Po pimp]

Yep. I won't go into details, but a friend of mine from HS killed his girlfriend and himself. I hadn't spoken to him in a few years (no particular reason why), but those who did keep in touch said they'd spoken to him a day or a couple of days prior, and he was the same goofy guy he's always been. Came as a complete shock to me because he was always an outgoing, goofy and athletic kid. His personality was not of someone who would've done something like that. Not to mention, he came from nothing and was doing well in life.

 

[Knuckles Red]

This thread was really cathartic to read through. So much sadness in this world. Thank you all for sharing your stories.

 

[NatiboyB]

When I was in the AF my suite mate killed himself after he failed his CDCs (he was an EOD tech). I didn’t even know it happened.

Over the years I’ve had Soldiers in my Platoon and Company also commit it. One of them impacted me greatly because the young man had so much potential and he had great leadership ability.

 

[drederick tatum]

I know quite a few people who have, unfortunately. I've talked more than a handful down from it. I pulled a guy off the fire escape when he was trying to jump, we became best friends. I wrestled a knife away from a guy who was trying to slit his wrist. Pulled a guy off a highway overpass who was trying to jump. Please take care of your mental health.

Edit: also pushed a girl out of the way of a car after she tried to run into its path. That was scary

 

[Top Left]

I know quite a few people who have, unfortunately. I've talked more than a handful down from it. I pulled a guy off the fire escape when he was trying to jump, we became best friends. I wrestled a knife away from a guy who was trying to slit his wrist. Pulled a guy off a highway overpass who was trying to jump. Please take care of your mental health.

 

[Lurkio]

I know 5 people who’ve committed suicide before they turned 30…close to 3 of them…all black men

 

[Vandelay]

Multiple people attempted; mom, nephew, ex-wife...my ex-wife's brother actually did it. Have another family friend who did it, but she was on some weird drugs after getting a hysterectomy. She was one of the happiest people i knew, then she had some drugs in her after the surgery and her mind flipped. The drugs were only temporary. Not even sure what drug it was, but it was temporary. She got so distressed in a week's time, drove to a bridge and jumped off.

 

[kaldurahm]

I know one guy who did a while back, that was confirmed when he was in Sri Lanka.

My homeboy unconfirmed, I'm sure the family knows and I'll leave it at that. His best friend told me he suspected it was a drug overdose. Messed me up for a long time, dude was going through it. Tried to help, but there's only so much one person can do.

 

[Wildhundreds]

Multiple people, mom, nephew, ex-wife...my ex-wife's brother actually did it. Have another family friend who did it, but she was on some weird drugs after getting a hysterectomy. She was one of the happiest people i knew, then she had some drugs in her after the surgery and her mind flipped. The drugs were only temporary. Not even sure what drug it was, but it was temporary. She got so distressed in a week's time, drove to a bridge and jumped off.

Your mom committed suicide?

 

[Vandelay]

Your mom committed suicide?

My bad, meant to put "attempted". I know 2 people who have killed themselves. Probably know more if I stop and think about it...

shyt, and I do...damn...

 

[jaydawg08]

My dad did when I was 18. He was a heavy alcoholic, kicked my mom out then kicked me and my sister out before I went back to help him out.

We had a huge fight about something the night before, and the following morning he wanted to make amends and asked if I wanted to do something with him after work.. I was still so angry, I said I wanted to hang with my friends tonight. He looked really defeated then walked back upstairs as I left the house and that was the last coherent conversation we ever had together.

Came home from work+friends and he was lying in bed next to about 20 cans of Schlitz malt liquor and throw up all over his bed/mouth. Called 9-11 and tried to wipe away the stuff clogging his airway, thought I killed him after paper towel got stuck there and he stopped breathing before the paramedics showed up and took him away

Came to find out he got drunk (like he always did) but decided to drink antifreeze and that's how he ended his life. He left a suicide note that was pretty basic about how he was tired of life and bills and who gets what... Then we read his journal and he said some REALLY nasty, mean, and hurtful things about me and my sister. Could have been his way of trying to justify not sticking around for us.

I have a complicated view on him as a person, and it changes depending on the day.. sometimes I feel sad, other times happy he passed, other times angry. It affected me greatly I ended up homeless and had a much harder life post HS.

All this to say.. people have very different reasons for doing it, but the friends/family always suffer the most

 

[Jamal514]

My mom’s friend’s son, who used to cut my hair as a kid, commited suicide in 2009. His 6 year old daughter died of cancer the year before and he couldn’t cope. He was 34 years old.

 

[Sunshine]

My dad did when I was 18. He was a heavy alcoholic, kicked my mom out then kicked me and my sister out before I went back to help him out.

We had a huge fight about something the night before, and the following morning he wanted to make amends and asked if I wanted to do something with him after work.. I was still so angry, I said I wanted to hang with my friends tonight. He looked really defeated then walked back upstairs as I left the house and that was the last coherent conversation we ever had together.

Came home from work+friends and he was lying in bed next to about 20 cans of Schlitz malt liquor and throw up all over his bed/mouth. Called 9-11 and tried to wipe away the stuff clogging his airway, thought I killed him after paper towel got stuck there and he stopped breathing before the paramedics showed up and took him away

Came to find out he got drunk (like he always did) but decided to drink antifreeze and that's how he ended his life. He left a suicide note that was pretty basic about how he was tired of life and bills and who gets what... Then we read his journal and he said some REALLY nasty, mean, and hurtful things about me and my sister. Could have been his way of trying to justify not sticking around for us.

I have a complicated view on him as a person, and it changes depending on the day.. sometimes I feel sad, other times happy he passed, other times angry. It affected me greatly I ended up homeless and had a much harder life post HS.

All this to say.. people have very different reasons for doing it, but the friends/family always suffer the most

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I think you're right, he attempted to disconnect and rationalize his decision to leave this world by writing negative things in the journal. I hope and pray that you are able to separate who you are from that experience. That was his story and how he chose to close the book of his life. You suffered while he was alive and after his passing. That's more than enough pain. I hope you find positive things about him that you loved and view him from that perspective. It will wear on your soul, with the back and forth about how you feel towards his death.

I wish you nothing but the best that life has to offer, from here on out.