Maybe should've posted this in HL but I was just thinking this early morning, like damn. I had a child super late in life compared to all my friends (31). And you know, all the way up to about mid 20s I was always like fukk outta here I ain't pressed bout having kids no time soon. But I got with this one chick at 23 and after being with her for like 5 years I was 
think I'm ready to have me one of these lil fukkers. And at 28, that thought would never be quiet, in fact it just got louder. I thought when I broke up with her I would chill because there was no longer a suitable candidate, but nah internally I was like bruh water you doing you old af.
Now we shame people for feeling like they "have" to have kids, internal clock n all that jazz. I, however, now understand that most of that shame is coming from people who don't have kids that can't really understand what I'm saying. Basically, I had my child in some pretty unfortunate circumstances but even through it all im so happy my baby girl is here
now everything I do is for her. I almost died on the expressway on my motorcycle last year before she was born, and that really put things in perspective for me. I don't live for myself like I used to, and everything I do now I keep her and her best interests in mind. It gives me real purpose; to nurture and protect this little seed until she grows up and becomes a wonderful human being and continues the circle of life.
Idk brehs I usually wake up with a lot of shyt on my mind but thankfully this morning has nice thoughts. Was just wondering if y'all really felt the same. I know"validating your life" isn't a way to put it that people like to hear, but think about it like what the fukk else are you here for? Eat, shyt, fukk, and sleep until you die. Everything else is just filler.... Until you have a child.
tldr; just cue the moesha dear diary music. I made a beautiful black baby girl and even though she almost a year old it still feels new and exciting. Out here making Umar and the hoteps proud
we here
think I'm ready to have me one of these lil fukkers. And at 28, that thought would never be quiet, in fact it just got louder. I thought when I broke up with her I would chill because there was no longer a suitable candidate, but nah internally I was like bruh water you doing you old af.Now we shame people for feeling like they "have" to have kids, internal clock n all that jazz. I, however, now understand that most of that shame is coming from people who don't have kids that can't really understand what I'm saying. Basically, I had my child in some pretty unfortunate circumstances but even through it all im so happy my baby girl is here
now everything I do is for her. I almost died on the expressway on my motorcycle last year before she was born, and that really put things in perspective for me. I don't live for myself like I used to, and everything I do now I keep her and her best interests in mind. It gives me real purpose; to nurture and protect this little seed until she grows up and becomes a wonderful human being and continues the circle of life.Idk brehs I usually wake up with a lot of shyt on my mind but thankfully this morning has nice thoughts. Was just wondering if y'all really felt the same. I know"validating your life" isn't a way to put it that people like to hear, but think about it like what the fukk else are you here for? Eat, shyt, fukk, and sleep until you die. Everything else is just filler.... Until you have a child.
tldr; just cue the moesha dear diary music. I made a beautiful black baby girl and even though she almost a year old it still feels new and exciting. Out here making Umar and the hoteps proud
we here
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damn breh, how old is your child and why are you so sure he's going to be a failure already?
