Ever go through periods of your life where it just feels like nothing is going right?

[Kiyoshi-Dono]

Is it serious? Or is it something you can fix by eating healthy and working out?

I had stomach issues(which I still don’t have a real diagnosis) back in July..
Come to find out I had polyps in my colon and a tumor..
The doctor said I was too young(I hate my insurance. Any of my Htown posters know how bad Memorial is) to get a colonoscopy..
But I said fukk that..
He removed all the polyps and tumor(even had a small radiation treatment to see if it spread)..
But my stomach issue still exists..
I stopped eating red meat and only have fruits, vegetables and chicken/fish as protein..
Been working out but last week I had this sharp shooting pain from my lower back to my testicle..
Went last week and found out about the arthritis..
So after January(when my new insurance kicks in)
I need to find a new
GP
Urologist
Ortho
Gastric doctor
The amount of pills I have to take
I was in a real bad place last month, ready to end it all..
But I remember my grandmother saying suicide was selfish..
Been going to counseling, which has been helping..
Going to work for the first time in 3 weeks, so I’m just trying to keep shyt in perspective..
It could have been a lot worse..

 

[badtguy]

Yeah but I have to remember its not me thats fukking up its the people around me.

I RARELY fukk up in life. if something goes bad its either something beyond my doing or directly caused by what someone else did that affects me.

 

[Heafcliffe]

Yeah but I then soon realize that some people would love to be in my position so lemme be grateful & fall back....

 

[African_brehda]

yes pls
from April to October this year
at a point started to feel i was cursed

 

[O YOU MAD BRA]

You n*kkas depressing as fu*k in here b


Go fu*k a b*tch or something you n*kkas to enlightened for your own good b can't even enjoy the simple things in life

 

[mortuus est]

life is annoying sometimes

 

[MrPentatonic]

I had stomach issues(which I still don’t have a real diagnosis) back in July..
Come to find out I had polyps in my colon and a tumor..
The doctor said I was too young(I hate my insurance. Any of my Htown posters know how bad Memorial is) to get a colonoscopy..
But I said fukk that..
He removed all the polyps and tumor(even had a small radiation treatment to see if it spread)..
But my stomach issue still exists..
I stopped eating red meat and only have fruits, vegetables and chicken/fish as protein..
Been working out but last week I had this sharp shooting pain from my lower back to my testicle..
Went last week and found out about the arthritis..
So after January(when my new insurance kicks in)
I need to find a new
GP
Urologist
Ortho
Gastric doctor
The amount of pills I have to take
I was in a real bad place last month, ready to end it all..
But I remember my grandmother saying suicide was selfish..
Been going to counseling, which has been helping..
Going to work for the first time in 3 weeks, so I’m just trying to keep shyt in perspective..
It could have been a lot worse..

immunity/ inflammation related?

 

[BaldingSoHard]

Nah brehs.

Life is fantastic.

Good health, good money, good weather...

Cryptos are steady rising... X-mas is around the corner... gains in the gym going up... all my boys about to be in town for new years.

We out here .

 

[NotaPAWG]

yup. last week i had to shell out 1k to get my car fixed in the middle of no where an hour from my house. was snowing my breaks locked up as i was going down a hill through an intersection. i had to either hit a truck or a sign and went with the sign and over 2 curbs. had to get my car towed down the street, oil pan replacement and new spark plugs. a fukking grand!

i’m working a new job that i started last week that i hate. it’s just something until i can start my apprenticeship with the union somewhere between 4-12 weeks from now. the money is shyt and the work is tedious.. carbon fiber vacuumed baging infusion. my co workers all barely speak english which sucks learning from someone who you can barely understand

i owe 5k to a college i attended for like two weeks. got some credit card debt

i’m never going to pay off my debt. i for context, i get almost 200 in food stamps but i give the card to my mom to buy food since the family is struggling since my dad cheated on my mom and isn’t living here no more. my grandpa and my mentally challenged brother mom and me live in the house and helping my mom out leaves me broke.

even once i start the job with the union and will be making way more money, better benefits, health insurance and pay off debt etc i feel like i’m stuck. i want to get out on my own and get my own crib but i feel like i’d be abandoning my mom and she hinted at me that it’s selfish of me to want to do that considering she’s struggling and will be for awhile. i just feel like my mom is dependent on me emotionally as well. i’m like her personal therapist and it gets old. she got issues from child hood trauma and i’m the person who’s always there for her to lay them on. when i lived in florida she begged me back. i’m her baby, my sister dipped when she got preggo at 15/16 and my bro isn’t exactly mentally there enough to be a shoulder to lean on. my dad never was. but it gets tiring. i’m fukking 28. i wanna get my life going, get my own place and most parents would encourage that.. not my mom. she encourages me to live at home forever. i hate it snd i know it’s for her own personal gain.

i just feel like whenever i take a step forward life always fukks me over and pushed me two steps back

also doesn’t help that i struggle with manic depression. i just feel like whatever i’m trying to do is useless. either way i’ll be stuck

 

[1thouwow]

All of 2009 for me

 

[New Username]

I had stomach issues(which I still don’t have a real diagnosis) back in July..
Come to find out I had polyps in my colon and a tumor..
The doctor said I was too young(I hate my insurance. Any of my Htown posters know how bad Memorial is) to get a colonoscopy..
But I said fukk that..
He removed all the polyps and tumor(even had a small radiation treatment to see if it spread)..
But my stomach issue still exists..
I stopped eating red meat and only have fruits, vegetables and chicken/fish as protein..
Been working out but last week I had this sharp shooting pain from my lower back to my testicle..
Went last week and found out about the arthritis..
So after January(when my new insurance kicks in)
I need to find a new
GP
Urologist
Ortho
Gastric doctor
The amount of pills I have to take
I was in a real bad place last month, ready to end it all..
But I remember my grandmother saying suicide was selfish..
Been going to counseling, which has been helping..
Going to work for the first time in 3 weeks, so I’m just trying to keep shyt in perspective..
It could have been a lot worse..

Hope everything works out for you the end. I had similar issues last year and now it seems like it never happened

 

[smokeurobinson]

You have winter spring summer and fall. Good days, ok days, bad days, not the best days. Cycles are a part of life....The key is not being so focused on the bad moments that u overlook the good. Like for instance, most of u right now have functioning legs....and there is someone who is bound to a wheelchair right now who would trade your problems for his/hers just to walk. There is someone right now in prison doing life who would trade with you to have your problems and be free.

 

[Pazzy]

Lol. Describes how I feel about my life most of the time since i was a preteen where its gotten worse the older ive become. I'm surprised that I haven't snapped on somebody yet on some shyt. I try to be cool and calm but it seems like something or somebody really wants to fukk with me on some bullshyt. A lot of times that somebody that fukks with me is me. It's like I'm my worst enemy and then someone has to throw their shyt in there to make me feel even worse. I can see why I'm angry, depressed, and basically negative most of the time.

So I'm trying, man but I'd be lying to you if I said that this really didn't get to me. Now when I go home, I know that whatever I managed to push to the back is going to come out when I'm in my room alone. Those painful feelings are going to overwhelm me and I'm going to be in bed sleeping my pain off. Just alone thinking about why I'm so fukked up, everyone else around me who basically isn't around when I need them and just basically suffering alone in silence. Then it's going to be a cycle where I just wish it would stop. It's torture. I feel like I'm doing a life sentence. Just thinking about it makes me have trouble breathing. I can't see myself living like this for another 5 years let alone a year. This is way too much.

I basically isolate myself away from other people so they don't know about how bad shyt is. I bet some people think I'm really enjoying life not even whats going on. I don't even bother to fukk with social media like that where everyone wants to post themselves enjoying life, their successes and etc. I have nothing good to show or positive shyt to mention. I can't even post a picture with me smiling because I'd be lying if I said I was happy with myself and my life.

 

[666 ReVeNGe 666]

I had stomach issues(which I still don’t have a real diagnosis) back in July..
Come to find out I had polyps in my colon and a tumor..
The doctor said I was too young(I hate my insurance. Any of my Htown posters know how bad Memorial is) to get a colonoscopy..
But I said fukk that..
He removed all the polyps and tumor(even had a small radiation treatment to see if it spread)..
But my stomach issue still exists..
I stopped eating red meat and only have fruits, vegetables and chicken/fish as protein..
Been working out but last week I had this sharp shooting pain from my lower back to my testicle..
Went last week and found out about the arthritis..
So after January(when my new insurance kicks in)
I need to find a new
GP
Urologist
Ortho
Gastric doctor
The amount of pills I have to take
I was in a real bad place last month, ready to end it all..
But I remember my grandmother saying suicide was selfish..
Been going to counseling, which has been helping..
Going to work for the first time in 3 weeks, so I’m just trying to keep shyt in perspective..
It could have been a lot worse..

What caused you to get sick?

Damn.

Can eating healthy and exercising reverse or prevent it?

 

[O.T.I.S.]

Lol. Describes how I feel about my life most of the time. I'm surprised that I haven't snapped on somebody yet on some shyt. I try to be cool and calm but it seems like something or somebody really wants to fukk with me on some bullshyt. A lot of times that somebody that fukks with me is me. It's like I'm my worst enemy and then someone has to throw their shyt in there to make me feel even worse. I can see why I'm angry, depressed, and basically negative most of the time.

So I'm trying, man but I'd be lying to you if I said that this really didn't get to me. Now when I go home, I know that whatever I managed to push to the back is going to come out when I'm in my room alone. Those painful feelings are going to overwhelm me and I'm going to be in bed sleeping my pain off. Then it's going to be a cycle where I just wish it would stop. It's torture. I feel like I'm doing a life sentence. Just thinking about it makes me have trouble breathing.

Not gonna lie I snapped on my grandad today.

Im in town to help my sickly grandma. Pretty much my dad and Aunt the only one that be doing shyt and im the only grandkid that is able (and willing) to come and help. Now they wanting me to stay with them and im like


But anyway, I came down a week early (fukked all my plans up) and stayed on some last minute shyt but he been trippin about me being here. Like he doesn't want me to drive her nowhere or do nothing (which I actually dont care because I get tired of driving.. But she asks me to do it because my car sits so low that its easier).

So Im pulling up at the hospital today to pick them up and he keeps yelling at me to pull the car up like I can't fukking drive or some shyt.

I fukking lost it. I don't get angry much but when I do its kinda vicious. When I parked he was like "well I was just saying.. no need to get mad" and im looking like.

Just this shyt everyday lately... Arguing, fighting, driving slow af for hours while people drive like idiots around you, etc.