Did it ever feel like yall "said goodbye" in your dreams?
I had a very vivid dream one time & I swear it mafe me feel at peace about my moms death
No, it was like my dreams were trolling me, i'd be like 'i thought you was dead
' and im all happy not knowing im dreaming and then i wake up and the reality hits me like
but its been a few years and im not traumatized about the losses no more so it doesn't happen. And fortunately i haven't lost any close family yet not even grandparents so i haven't experienced that feeling of needing closure.
that's some sad shyt...can't blame yourself or your husband for those circumstances. I know that's gotta be hard on your conscious though. Sorry to hear that and wish you the best in dealing with that.