Ever went through a depression?

[Ciggavelli]

well coincidentally, i stopped getting depressed every autumn when i cut ties with 2 close friends that were actually diagnosed with bipolar. i still have off weeks but for the most part, things have been normal since i moved away to vegas. i havent gone to therapy consistently but the few times i have, they've told me that i'm very 'normal' despite some of the stuff i post on this board

 

[Chill]

Had one, best thing to do is just find something to replace that black hole and move on quick before it eats you.

 

[Raava]

Yes. But it is just something that I just get over when/if it happens.

 

[The 2020 New Member]

what is so bad about the medication, though? my former friends used to make a big deal about it and often NOT take it or drink.

 

[Ciggavelli]

what is so bad about the medication, though? my former friends used to make a big deal about it and often NOT take it or drink.

yeah, drinking is completely out of the question.

The shyts make you dumb. I can't find words half of the time (and I consider myself a pretty intelligent individual). I'm on Lamictal, Geodon, and Klonopin now, which is a good combination for me (but all of those meds make you fukking dumb as shyt).

More traditional meds like Saphris, Seroquel, etc. are even worse. Saphris will make you anxious as shyt and give you tremors, Seroquel will make you sleep all day and can give you diabetes and cataracts, and depokote makes you fat, bald, and stupid. Plus now my liver is fukked up and they're probably gonna switch my meds, so I'm gonna be in a terrible fukking situation for a few months.

The worst part is, you aren't getting those highs anymore. I was so creative and full of energy then. But my problem was really with the lows. I was SOOOOO depressed, so, so , so depressed. All that shyt is done with now.

I dunno if I like myself better now or back before the meds, but I guess not killing yourself is always better, right? (I seriously considered it many times)

 

[The 2020 New Member]

yeah, drinking is completely out of the question.

The shyts make you dumb. I can't find words half of the time (and I consider myself a pretty intelligent individual). I'm on Lamictal, Geodon, and Klonopin now, which is a good combination for me (but all of those meds make you fukking dumb as shyt).

More traditional meds like Saphris, Seroquel, etc. are even worse. Saphris will make you anxious as shyt and give you tremors, Seroquel will make you sleep all day and can give you diabetes and cataracts, and depokote makes you fat, bald, and stupid. Plus now my liver is fukked up and they're probably gonna switch my meds, so I'm gonna be in a terrible fukking situation for a few months.

The worst part is, you aren't getting those highs anymore. I was so creative and full of energy then. But my problem was really with the lows. I was SOOOOO depressed, so, so , so depressed. All that shyt is done with now.

I dunno if I like myself better now or back before the meds, but I guess not killing yourself is always better, right? (I seriously considered it many times)

i think that you just keel kinda dumb though. that's not the reality. everyone i knew with BP was impressively well read and awesome when it came to conversation. one my was best friends dealt with it and so did my ex. they only reason i stopped hanging with them is because things would escalate sporadically and suddenly when they went out of their routine. they'd get an odd notion in their head and i could never convince them to let it go. i had a friend that laughed at a joke for like 8 hours straight and then got stuck on a loop about how he hated himself. i was legit scared as hell at first but then i learned how to care/deal with them.

 

[Ciggavelli]

i think that you just keel kinda dumb though. that's not the reality. everyone i knew with BP was impressively well read and awesome when it came to conversation. one my was best friends dealt with it and so did my ex. they only reason i stopped hanging with them is because things would escalate sporadically and suddenly when they went out of their routine. they'd get an odd notion in their head and i could never convince them to let it go. i had a friend that laughed at a joke for like 8 hours straight and then got stuck on a loop about how he hated himself. i was legit scared as hell at first but then i learned how to care/deal with them.

Yeah, this happened a lot with me. Getting stuck on a thought and not being able to let it go. It still happens, but much less now.

 

[bl2k8]

Going throug one right now, shyt sucks. Doc gave me klonopin for anxiety but I'm Finna pop one before class tmrw just to get my mood straight I had stopped fukkin with em too for about a a month and a half

 

[O.T.I.S.]

Going throug one right now, shyt sucks