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My fiance saw old sex videos of me
I am 28. I have been with my fiance, he's 32, for 3 years. We were really close friends for 2 years before that. Before we dated, I was with a guy from age 12-19.
My first boyfriend was controlling and manipulative. I was too young and couldn't see through it. I had a bad home life and watched my dad sexually abuse my mom until she killed herself. We started having sex early (age 12) and he wanted to try different things. When I was 14 he pressured me into bringing other people into our sex life, his friends.
When we were older, age 18, he took some videos of us having sex with and without other people. He said he wanted to use them to masturbate and deleted them after. Well he didn't.
My boyfriend proposed 3 days ago and we posted engagement photos yesterday. Yesterday evening my ex sent my fiance a message saying "just so you know what you are marrying" and attached old videos of me.
I only have contact with my ex because we have a 8 year old son together. He rarely sees our son. He only has visitation for 8 hour a month, and hardly ever uses it. In my sons eyes, that is not his dad - my fiance is.
I don't know what to do.... I didn't really lie to my fiance. When we first got together he said he would never ask me my "number" as it was none of his business. He see's me as a good girl, and assumed I had only slept with 2-3 people. I've only had 2 relationships. He won't even talk to me now and isn't sure if he wants to be with me.
I get it. I hate myself and I am extremely embarrassed. I hate thinking about it and wish I had never done it. I was in a bad place and had issues. Getting pregnant is what snapped me out of it and I went into therapy. My fiance wouldn't even touch me and said I was gross. He made me feel like a washed up porn star.
I've slept with 18 guys and 4 girls. He thinks I'm going to want to do stuff like that again and he's not into it. I never want to do it again, I didn't even want to do it then. My fiance has only slept with 4 women and he thinks even that is a lot. He said that the image he had of me is tainted and he is embarrassed that he didn't know. I get it, I feel disgusting myself. But I don't need the love of my life thinking that way about me...
I cannot lose him. I love him so much and we are suppose to be building our life together. We were so happy and it came crashing down so fast.
He won't answer my calls or texts and I don't know where he is.... I tried to call his mom and she wouldn't answer either... I don't know if he called her. I can't think or breathe. I need him to come home. I don't know if he will ever be able to get past this. It was 10 years ago... it never should have happened. But now all he sees is a girl who screwed a group of guys and took a video of it. He thinks there will be videos posted online for people to find.

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My fiance saw old sex videos of me
I am 28. I have been with my fiance, he's 32, for 3 years. We were really close friends for 2 years before that. Before we dated, I was with a guy from age 12-19.
My first boyfriend was controlling and manipulative. I was too young and couldn't see through it. I had a bad home life and watched my dad sexually abuse my mom until she killed herself. We started having sex early (age 12) and he wanted to try different things. When I was 14 he pressured me into bringing other people into our sex life, his friends.
When we were older, age 18, he took some videos of us having sex with and without other people. He said he wanted to use them to masturbate and deleted them after. Well he didn't.
My boyfriend proposed 3 days ago and we posted engagement photos yesterday. Yesterday evening my ex sent my fiance a message saying "just so you know what you are marrying" and attached old videos of me.
I only have contact with my ex because we have a 8 year old son together. He rarely sees our son. He only has visitation for 8 hour a month, and hardly ever uses it. In my sons eyes, that is not his dad - my fiance is.
I don't know what to do.... I didn't really lie to my fiance. When we first got together he said he would never ask me my "number" as it was none of his business. He see's me as a good girl, and assumed I had only slept with 2-3 people. I've only had 2 relationships. He won't even talk to me now and isn't sure if he wants to be with me.
I get it. I hate myself and I am extremely embarrassed. I hate thinking about it and wish I had never done it. I was in a bad place and had issues. Getting pregnant is what snapped me out of it and I went into therapy. My fiance wouldn't even touch me and said I was gross. He made me feel like a washed up porn star.
I've slept with 18 guys and 4 girls. He thinks I'm going to want to do stuff like that again and he's not into it. I never want to do it again, I didn't even want to do it then. My fiance has only slept with 4 women and he thinks even that is a lot. He said that the image he had of me is tainted and he is embarrassed that he didn't know. I get it, I feel disgusting myself. But I don't need the love of my life thinking that way about me...
I cannot lose him. I love him so much and we are suppose to be building our life together. We were so happy and it came crashing down so fast.
He won't answer my calls or texts and I don't know where he is.... I tried to call his mom and she wouldn't answer either... I don't know if he called her. I can't think or breathe. I need him to come home. I don't know if he will ever be able to get past this. It was 10 years ago... it never should have happened. But now all he sees is a girl who screwed a group of guys and took a video of it. He thinks there will be videos posted online for people to find.