Dorian Breh
Veteran
UPDATE:
@Ill Clinton @R$G META @HellRell804

Quote:
Originally Posted by benpom![]()
I am so sorry this happened.
One thing I am a little confused about is: why does the fiance think she enjoyed it? Did he get this impression from the video? or it this his imagination?
Either way, sex life in a relationship is too important to endure this sort of damage. Really sounds like game over, unfortunately.
OP's response:
The way he saw it: There wasn't a gun to my head and I wasn't held down screaming. I stayed in one open position the entire time and wasn't forced there. I was being penetrated and giving oral at the same time. I was moaning and had an orgasm so I clearly liked it. I let them come on me, something he has never done.
The way it really was: There wasn't a gun to my head, I wasn't held down or beaten, I didn't have to be. I didn't feel like there was any other choice. I didn't fight being in that position because it meant I didn't have to look at their faces and could pretend I was somewhere else. I blanked out many times and if I did all I thought was when it would be over, if I was going to catch something, how much I hated it. I moaned, quiet and fake, because it ended sooner if I did. The only time the moaning was real was when I had an orgasm, which didn't happen often and only when it lasted a long time. It was just a physical response. I would blank out and would be pulled back right when I had an orgasm. It was horrible and I hated it. I didn't have a say in anything. It had been happening for 4 years, I knew the drill.
IMO, it really didn't look like someone who was enjoying themselves and into it. I was just there for somewhere for them to stick their d**ks into. But he saw 4 people inside of me and made his decision.
He has made his mind up, I doubt he will ever come back. I know walking away is hard for him too. I'd do anything to go back and do things right. I had a tiny glimmer of hope when he showed up to my sons soccer game today but it wasn't for me.
@Ill Clinton @R$G META @HellRell804
