YES. It's not an important issue, but it does bother me. Conversations about sex often make me uncomfortable, and being in recovery, I'm going to have to eventually write about these things, tell someone, and make amends; but I do feel unique in two aspects, my sexuality, and my mental illness.
I don't consider myself straight, bi, or gay though. 90 percent of the men I've been with were confused or under the influence. Maybe two were gay. All ladies I've been with had serious issues. I was high 95 % of the time. I've done things i'd never do clean. It's hard to know what I like. Even with school and work right now, I find myself getting bored easily. I literally see no difference in a male or female as a sex partner. I know I prefer the company of men, and them physically, but when it comes to sex, I have no preference. There's also a lot I refuse to do, despite having no preference.
So much has come up to the surface recently, that's really bugging me out in terms of sexuality. There was a time when I was using coke that I had sexual feelings for my parents. I'm pretty sure i'm gonna have a flashback one of these days that something inappropriate was done to me. My family is dysfunctional.