Have you guys ever had a 'defeated' feeling in your lives?

[Marci-Senpai]

I been through so much and life continues to kick my butt. Sometimes i get to feeling when will it be my turn ya kno cant i have nice things? a family of my own? or even peace? Anybody else ever experienced this? I hope we all get our breakthroughs soon man.

 

[RickyDiBiase]

There was days where I slept with a gun next to my bed or in the car, and I would wake up telling myself that today was it. I'm throwing in the towel and plugging myself for good. I'm worthless, bitter and ain't worth shyt. I don't drink, but I get why brehs who do along with smoking. You your own worse critic. You can make yourself feel like shyt or not deserve the finer things in life based on what's around you and what's going on. The things we want in life are right in front of us, but they cause ever more strain as life goes on.

But I'd be lying if I say it ain't worth it at the end of the day. To hear my son laugh, my woman cooking good food, my mama laughing with her friends and finally taking trips around the world like she always said she would.

All of this comes with a headache and a half. All of it can turn sour. It's just how you ride the waves.

The key as a man is to seize what you want and accept that life will never be all smiles and rainbows, and a bytch with a fat ass. My son laughs, but I worry about his breathing cause of BPD. My woman is a motherfukking treasure, but I wonder if she went with me cause she loves me or cause I was a safer option. My mama goes on the trips cause her husband is a worthless, immature fakkit with a god complex who cheated on her every chance he got.

But still I push forward. You have to. Just know you not alone breh. It's gonna come.

 

[jdubnyce]

Not to the extent that the 2 posters befoe me have articulated

I hope you find your inner peace brehs

 

[maxamusa]

Can't relate. Its been sunshine and rainbows since day 1 for me










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( for rainbows)

 

[Pazzy]

Its an everyday struggle in my case but NEVER GIVE UP no matter how hard it gets. Sometimes we make things harder for ourselves with the expectations we place upon ourselves. Then when we dont meet them or things dont turn out the way we expect them to be, we are disappointed. How we manage the disappointment is how we survive and come back harder. DONT GIVE UP. Live the journey out.

 

[Sleepy Floyd]

When they told me I was facing 36 years in prison, I was looking for the quickest way to commit dat


All I could do was pray

 

[hostsamurai]

Sure, I spent a good portion of my twenties trying to prove that one of my siblings was a POS. I through out bait all the time, and my parents excused awful behaviour all the time. Got to a point where I realized they do know what's going on and they refuse to do anything about it. After that I just stopped talking to them. Nobody has asked why I don't speak to anyone. And at this point I'm too used to not speaking to my family to want to go back to that situation.

Narcissism is strong in my family.

 

[Ezekiel 25:17]

Time is wasted on the young. Damn if I could go back in time.

 

[WhatsGoodTy]

Everyday, but you just gotta fight back…you’ll get a W EVENTUALLY

 

[SunZoo]

The majority of my life.

I didn't experience life any other way til I hit my 30's. And even though things are more level, those patterns are still there in my brain. Still very familiar with pain, abuse, trauma, loliness, struggle, implosion.

The blessing in all of that is, I been through so much, it's hard to get me off my square.

 

[blues_funk_reggae]

Coli brehs never take a loss, we 16-0 going into the playoffs

 

[SoSoSlick]

Coli brehs never take a loss, we 16-0 going into the playoffs

AND with a Top 3 pick my breh!

 

[CourtesyFlush]

All the time but I try to remember that self pity is an absolutely worthless emotion. Remind myself to toughen up and go get it

 

[Canada Goose]

Short answer, Yes. I'm going though this right now for the past day or so. Had a bad social interaction (not on the coli) that really has me fukked up. Hopefully the negatively of it in my mind goes away. Been moping around with my (negative) thoughts. Tried to go for a walk earlier to for some mental relief but it didn't help much.


To all my Coli brehs and young bosses/we bounce back when we take losses

 

[King_Kamala61]

all the time....it depresses me and I dwell on it..but then I remember I gotta keep grinding and just push it back to the farthest part of my mind. I turn to sex workers, drugs and art for comfort. This shyt ain't easy being alive..so I just stay focused on my purpose.