I'm obviously a male, but I don't feel like a MAN. I just don't feel like I inspire feelings of respect/attention in people.
I'm currently in college, majoring in marketing. Facial wise, I could still pass for a 9th grader. That's not a benefit, I'm still ugly as hell

I just look like a young ugly nikka. On top of that, I have a noticeable lazy eye due to health reasons & little kids either laugh at me or stare at me with the

face & I feel like, while adults don't necessarily do that, they're thinking it in their mind.
My only manly feature is that I'm pretty tall (6 feet) but I'm still fat

Not on no Viscera/Big Pun ish but you can definitely tell I'm overweight.
Since I can't drive due to low vision, I don't know anything about cars/mechanics

I catch the county bus

No girl wants anything to do with a nikka riding the bus

Miami is a car-centric city so I know ppl be like "Look at this bum ass nikka

" when they see me walking. On top of that, I still live with my mom

And I don't know how to fix stuff around the house, I'm not technically sound
Due to my poor health, I couldn't play contact sports

I suck at them anyway
I know, I know, I can't be so down on myself, but every so often I think of myself, and I think of the Big T vs. DNA battle, when Big T said "nikka, HOW YOU GON BE UGLY
AND SOFT?!?!"