It's strange in all honesty because I knew about death from an early age due to someone in my family dieing but when it came to me being dead? Didn't know it could happen til I was like 8 or 9.
I was talking to my mom and I don't really remember what she said but it came to me that we all die one day.
I didn't even wanna finish my sandwich as I sat there like

trying to think why God would do such a thing.
This was back when I still fully believed in God so it was so backwards to me.
Ya feel me?
When I was in fourth grade, my sister picked me up from the Boys and Girls club and took me home.
I remember because it was night time, and all the stars were out. She was playing "Ex Factor" by Lauryn Hill and it had me feeling really introspective.
I looked up into the stars and I realized for the first time that the universe was this [[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[ big and earth was this small .
We're a little dot in a big black universe
We're insignificant
We trapped on this blue ball like fish in a fish bowl
This is all we'll ever be
There's some kid playing a video game in another dimension and we call him God
We're trapped on this planet Earth, which is trapped in this Milky Way galaxy which is trapped with several other solar systems in this one universe but, there has to be something outside of it :mjcrydoughboy:we're like zoo animals in the sense that we're being controlled by a higher life form (god), and in the sense for believing life starts and ends in the zoo (earth/the universe) but, the humans (god) live and exist in a place outside of the zoo (universe).
We're Sims characters and we don't realize it :mjcrydoughboy:We'll never be able to leave the game :mjcrydoughboy:
I realized this at 9 years old just from looking at the stars and got really depressed the rest of the way home :mjcrydoughboy: