You have to be a masochist

I’ve only been in love 3 times..
The first one destroyed me..
Still have lingering effects till this day..
But I also learn something’s about myself..
And in reality..
I wasn’t who I am today..
I was just a young knucklehead..
Second..
Was my ex wife..
I loved her but it was that “deep love”..
Looking back on it..
I think we tolerated each other..
But we also grew from that relationship..
And we are awesome co-parents..
My current wife is it..
She embodies everything I’ve wanted my whole life..
She’s my lover, friend and rock..
Couldn’t ask for a better partner..
We just get each other..
We are both whole weirdos..
That don’t try to change each other..
But we listen..
Not saying it’s a Disney movie..
We have disagreements but we resolve them..
In an adult manner..
This love quite possibly will break me..
If it falls apart..
I’m not stupid to the world..
Seen way too much fukkery..
But I’m enjoying the time and journey..
She’s just a wonderful woman that I will always love..
As long as nikka like Skeet doesn’t come through

I really can’t tell young dudes not to feel the way they do..
It’s so trash ass females out here(men are not exempt either)..
Hearing some of my boys dating stories

And then I get my wife’s friends stories



It’s a lot of emotionally fukked up people outchea

I was one of them until I started counseling..
And started accepting accountability for myself..
But not only that..
I stopped projecting onto people..
What I thought they should be..
Learning to accept people as they are..
Knowing when to leave..
Knowing yourself and loving yourself..
Actually “feeling” shyt..
Instead of closing yourself off..
Is how I found love..
Yeah I know that is hippy/dippy..
New age..
Juelz Santana..
iyanla vanzant talk

But that cliche of loving yourself..
Is very true..
Once you deal with them demons and just accept the way life is..
shyt really does reveal itself..
Word to Neo
