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i'd probably spend alot more time with my sister, aunts , uncles and cousins
At first, it crossed my mind (I was going through it!), I felt empty as fukk. All lonely and what not. But I eventually withdrew from everybody, kind lost all emotion. I didn't give a fukk no more that is for sure. I was vulnerable and desperate. I was 5 hours away when she died and our last conversation wasn't the most savory. We exchanged I love you's though. I just couldn't grasp the fact that I didn't have anyone in my corner... I was delusional. I constantly called her phone the whole drive back home. My uncle picked up crying and all he could say was " I'm sorry, Mac. She gone."
I was bitter as fukk, especially New Years. When I thought about someone who disrespected their mom, I would be pissed and think "Why couldn't it happen to you, instead."
At first, it crossed my mind (I was going through it!), I felt empty as fukk. All lonely and what not. But I eventually withdrew from everybody, kind lost all emotion. I didn't give a fukk no more that is for sure. I was vulnerable and desperate. I was 5 hours away when she died and our last conversation wasn't the most savory. We exchanged I love you's though. I just couldn't grasp the fact that I didn't have anyone in my corner... I was delusional. I constantly called her phone the whole drive back home. My uncle picked up crying and all he could say was " I'm sorry, Mac. She gone."
I was bitter as fukk, especially New Years. When I thought about someone who disrespected their mom, I would be pissed and think "Why couldn't it happen to you, instead."
Easy, i would become The Batman.
I lost both already, dad when I was 4 and mom when I was 20...She passed 12/24/2009. That shyt still hurts...I suppose because she is going to be missing any and every event that occurs. She already missed key elements( marriage, birth of my son, etc..) I literally had a breakdown on her birthday last year( 10 days after mine.)I'm an only child so I don't have any siblings to share my grief. I recently met someone in this same situation (his parents died young.) I'm getting better.
Pray for me brehs/brehettes
If it happened when I was 21-25, I probably would have become a nomad and just traveled the rest of my life as there would have been nothing to bring me back to the US.
Now that I have a family of my own, it's going to be difficult as hell and I dread the day I lose them. It really fukking sucks when you stop and think about it, you have two guaranteed "Worst days of your life" coming up, you just don't know when.
whyIt'd feel pretty surreal for awhile, but I haven't really been close to either of my parents since I was about 14 or so. So I guess my reaction would be alot different than someone with a good relationship with their fam.
If it happened when I was 21-25, I probably would have become a nomad and just traveled the rest of my life as there would have been nothing to bring me back to the US.
Now that I have a family of my own, it's going to be difficult as hell and I dread the day I lose them. It really fukking sucks when you stop and think about it, you have two guaranteed "Worst days of your life" coming up, you just don't know when.
If it happened when I was 21-25, I probably would have become a nomad and just traveled the rest of my life as there would have been nothing to bring me back to the US.
Now that I have a family of my own, it's going to be difficult as hell and I dread the day I lose them. It really fukking sucks when you stop and think about it, you have two guaranteed "Worst days of your life" coming up, you just don't know when.
Easy, i would become The Batman.