my older brother was never a bigger brother to me. He always had only child syndrome and is greedy, selfish, and jealous. I was better at him than many things but more humble. He caused me great trauma in my life because as a smaller brother, I used to suppress my greatness just to not piss him off.
I got older and more mature and grew confidence away from him. We regained a connection, but he still displays his selfishness and I fukkin HATE him for it. I live away from home and visited the family for the first time in 1 1/2 years and he gets impatient over the smallest shyt instead of enjoying the little time he is spending with his fukkin little brother. I hate this nikka and his fukkin ego. He never sees or cared about his selfish ass ways and I've always helped him with a smile with whatever he needed, but God forbid you ask him for something and he'd drag his feet and pout the whole way through. I shoulda been banged this nikkas brains a long time ago and taught him a lesson
I'm done wit seeking friendship because I have high standards and people always will let you down. Done with family except for mom and dad (although they have their ways, it's tolerable). I've even been cautious about being around women because I've always got into some shyt when they're around and they require way too much damn energy that I'm just plainly not willing to give right now. They always seem to have all types of support systems and shyt to get through stuff but I don't know what that's like. Straight up, all I got is myself and this music. Don't need or even want anyone or anything else. It's enough to make me look forward to another day when I didn't want to look at other days back in the day.
I got older and more mature and grew confidence away from him. We regained a connection, but he still displays his selfishness and I fukkin HATE him for it. I live away from home and visited the family for the first time in 1 1/2 years and he gets impatient over the smallest shyt instead of enjoying the little time he is spending with his fukkin little brother. I hate this nikka and his fukkin ego. He never sees or cared about his selfish ass ways and I've always helped him with a smile with whatever he needed, but God forbid you ask him for something and he'd drag his feet and pout the whole way through. I shoulda been banged this nikkas brains a long time ago and taught him a lesson

I'm done wit seeking friendship because I have high standards and people always will let you down. Done with family except for mom and dad (although they have their ways, it's tolerable). I've even been cautious about being around women because I've always got into some shyt when they're around and they require way too much damn energy that I'm just plainly not willing to give right now. They always seem to have all types of support systems and shyt to get through stuff but I don't know what that's like. Straight up, all I got is myself and this music. Don't need or even want anyone or anything else. It's enough to make me look forward to another day when I didn't want to look at other days back in the day.
