i just got scared calling for a takeaway.

but the act of boxing and fighting someone doesnt scare me. of course you get the normal pre fight nerves. but nowhere near enough nerves to make me not want to box.
i had to physically force myself to make a phone call just now. i cant physically text people. like i will just go straight into avoidant personality disorder and make excuses as to why i wont text. like it could be my own moms textin me and i just cant bring myself to physically text back. like theres a physical/mental block that i cant explain.
i think i have mental issues. like i have to drink alcohol for job interviews to make myself go. i use the boxing gym to hide. dead serious. i hide from the world in the boxing gym.
mentally what does this mean?

What kinda job have you landed where you could DRINK before the interview and make the cut? 
Be better than that breh. Honestly, you just said yourself that they'll hire anyone, yet you feel the need to drink??? More than anything, it sounds like you have a serious lack of self esteem. Work on that first and this social anxiety/avoidant/autism bullshyt will be handled as well.
I tried.