I turned 29 few months back, being objectively honest I have never really had a girlfriend either…..Yes, in middle school I had two 'girlfriends' with whom 'relationships' were arranged by friends, and subsequently ended, both girls cute, but at 13-14, you know the whole 'were going out' that equates to phone conversations and talking in hall, I was at a loss for how to do anything else….hadn't kissed or had sex yet. In high school, I was probably on my way to having one, multiple candidates ready and willing, again I was unsure how to proceed, it would have likely worked itself out….but, in 10th grade I started hustling, and that was it for me as far as relationships….I had my little crushes and unrequited loves, but I was doing coke and valium everyday, and the thing I cared about most was streets and money. Was not in position to have functional relationship, with anyone that I would have liked.
1 year after high school I fell in love with a close friends sister, and we both engaged in what amounted to a, drunken and drug addled affair at her house, for few months. We were both passionate and infatuated with each other, but I was too immature and honestly drug and alcohol addled to really take things further, I also got locked up for awhile, effectively ending things. We never held hands outside, or went on a date, we just slept together, drank, and lived with each other in a hazy, drunk blur for months. Jail, then rehab a year later after the alcohol caught up with me, then 18 months in halfway house….Then sober, I spent ALOT of time afterwards working on myself, for years, i didn't date, or have anything going on in that are at all, for a really long time. Then it was all about the money again, and it wasn't until the last few years, last 2 more so that I started dating and pursuing relationships…which hasn't worked out with whom I've wanted, but I'm for the most part fine with it…bizarrely enough, despite my lack of relationships, all my friends hit me for advice, and I've spent so much time observing, learning, whatever, I'm always the one giving the advice. In short, don't' worry about it much.
Went to my high school reunion over weekend, and I was mostly appalled at those who married young, or have been in long term relationships for better part of last decade, I am glad i didn't go that route, if nothing else.