
OP we all in this together. While there's some folks that giving you that tough love, I'm not going to go that route but just some gems to keep you on your toes:
Right now, I'm making the income in the household and it's been a strain on my marriage lately. Due to the fact of my wife's illness and how it affects a typical 9 to 5. Now, factor that in with bills piling up and the rent is around the corner. Along with spare time to even deal with the shyt, where my job sadly was my refuge from even thinking about that shyt. Tie that with my slight depression due to feeling lonely despite being married and having a son. It almost feels like the only person that understand's Ace is the dude that gets eyecrust from his eyeballs in the mirror.
Having to work two times out of the week in the mist of this Rona shyt, dealing with every a$$hole in the great city I reside in because they don't understand the wonders of curbside service

. Now, put that all into the mindset of somebody who wish that his mother was still around because she could make all this shyt sound like a bedtime lullaby. Its hard to have faith in these crazy times but what else can you do? I for one can't do shyt but be black, raise a family, and try to make the most of these times pleasant and meaningful, while God does the rest.
Bottom line, you are only human and it will get better. Cry it out, write it out, or whatever you desire. At the end of the day, you are not alone in this. Hell, I bought Animal Crossing just to get over the problems, while it's not helping with the plans to pay the rent, it's a coping mechanism to show that there's light beyond this bullshyt.
Trust the process