I'm going to go sober

[Mandarin Duck]

I been having some real issues over the past year despite my career doing well. My life outside of work is spiraling out of control.

I've had panic attacks.
Anxiety.
Depression.
And antisocial to a fault.

I would see people I've known for years and act like I didn't know them.

Flat out ignore people while they're trying to talk to me.

Instead of focusing on my problems I been doing drugs to cope.

Weed was my drug of choice, but over the past 3 months I've been consistently doing coke along with smoking weed.

I eventually got to a point where I didn't even want weed anymore. Only coke.

I would wake up, go to work, come home, do coke all night, sleep for 45 mins and get up to do it all over again the next day.

I tried to get ahold of my dealer a few days ago and he wasn't picking up.

So I was in my house with no coke and I felt useless.

If it wasn't for me being forced to be sober that night I wouldn't have realized how fukked up my mind has been for a while.

At first I thought I would just stop coke and keep smoking weed. But I think I really need some time to get completely sober and try and find some real happiness out of life.

I been calling some therapist and I plan on seeing one very soon.

If anybody else is going through some shyt and using anything as a coping mechanism please take some time out to look in the mirror and change what you do have control over.

TL:DR
I'm a snorter and I'm tryna do better.

 

[Gold]

i'm not trolling at all when I say this...
But some of ya'll need therapy.

I'm serious, not a joke. But its clear these threads are a desire to be heard. Why not be heard by someone with a degree and experience dealing wiht this instead of an internet forum full of a$$holes and agents


You should check into it. Most healthcare will cover it

 

[Mandarin Duck]

i'm not trolling at all when I say this...
But some of ya'll need therapy.

I'm serious, not a joke. But its clear these threads are a desire to be heard. Why not be heard by someone with a degree and experience dealing wiht this instead of an internet forum full of a$$holes and agents


You should check into it. Most healthcare will cover it

I actually mentioned therapy in my post

It's fine I wouldn't expect you to read my long ass rant anyway.

Alot of y'all say log off the coli but the anonymity of this forum has allowed me to put some of my issues into words that I read later on.

Like I've said before I don't communicate with people outside of work so this place helps.

 

[Field Marshall Bradley]

Don’t stop completely right now.... but see if you got the discipline to cut it in half..... if you can, you might be able to do some introspective shyt and figure out why you lean on the dope so hard to feel normal/sane/not down

 

[Gold]

I actually mentioned therapy in my post

It's fine I wouldn't expect you to read my long ass rant anyway.

Alot of y'all say log off the coli but the anonymity of this forum has allowed me to put some of my issues into words that I read later on.

Like I've said before I don't communicate with people outside of work so this place helps.

I didn't tell you to log off. Just saying these conversations may be more fruitful with a therapist.

I'm hapy that you are seeking one out though. Those people are good at what they do. Co-pay for some insurance is like $15.

Great value, I honestly think more people should take advantage of it

 

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]

Explains a lot. There are a few folks on here you should take with you.

Coke is such an "empty" drug. Never got the appeal unless you got some shyt to do. But a friend of my explained that the emptiness helps to clear the mind and escape the pain. Doesn't seem worth it but I don't walk in your shoes. That is a hard habit to break.

Get well soon. Wishing you the best.

 

[I Really Mean It]

 

[Garjxen]

@DarianaGrande - Do it....it will be good for you....I've been through what you're talking about when I was younger....I find moderate use with periods of sobriety works well....but when you been using heavy and/or long term, nothings better for you than 6-12 months just straight sober....I suggest going to NA meetings and making some friends....

 

[Freedman]

Lil Dope head.

I been smoking weed for going on 11 years now never once thought about powder.

 

[Marco Zen]

I been having some real issues over the past year despite my career doing well. My life outside of work is spiraling out of control.

I've had panic attacks.
Anxiety.
Depression.
And antisocial to a fault.

I would see people I've known for years and act like I didn't know them.

Flat out ignore people while they're trying to talk to me.

Instead of focusing on my problems I been doing drugs to cope.

Weed was my drug of choice, but over the past 3 months I've been consistently doing coke along with smoking weed.

I eventually got to a point where I didn't even want weed anymore. Only coke.

I would wake up, go to work, come home, do coke all night, sleep for 45 mins and get up to do it all over again the next day.

I tried to get ahold of my dealer a few days ago and he wasn't picking up.

So I was in my house with no coke and I felt useless.

If it wasn't for me being forced to be sober that night I wouldn't have realized how fukked up my mind has been for a while.

At first I thought I would just put coke and keep smoking weed. But I think I really need some time to get completely sober and try and find some real happiness out of life.

I been calling some therapist and I plan on seeing one very soon.

If anybody else is going through some shyt and using anything thing as a coping mechanism please take some time out to look in the mirror and change what you do have control over.

TL:DR
I'm a snorter and I'm tryna do better.

If you're anything like I was trying to quit on your own will just be a repeated failure. Sometimes we need help despite how "weak" it looks as a man needing help... Go to treatment, get therapy whatever you have to do..

Sometimes we can be our own worst therapist.. Telling ourselves "I got this".. When its obvious we don't...


I can tell you from my experience, coming from a mf that used to get high all day daily, multiple drugs AND alcohol.. Getting and staying sober was THE BEST decision of my life..

I'm not perfect and I still go thru shyt but overall im a better man in all areas of my life.. And before any of you nikkaz take offense to what I'm saying, I don't mean I'm better than you because I'm not, what I mean is I'm 100% better than the old ME

 

[Rozay Oro]

That's good to hear breh. Wish you and anyone else recovering the best. Nothing wrong with seeking help.

 

[old pig]

when I first started posting here...I thought OP was a bytch...I quickly realized I was wrong yet right

I’m sorry man...this was totally unnecessary...idk you like that...was just talking shyt

 

[bangbreh]

Don’t stop completely right now.... but see if you got the discipline to cut it in half..... if you can, you might be able to do some introspective shyt and figure out why you lean on the dope so hard to feel normal/sane/not down

Not good advice at all
"Managing" the drug use, whatever the kind, keeps the door open.
Anybody who's said to the vice should be supported. That first revelation is hard to come by before some catastrophic shyt goes down.
Those who find their way in sobriety never regret it. I don't.
That hourglass doesn't have unlimited grains of sand.

 

[chopchop702]

I was a habitual after work beer drinker and also a liquour drinker on weekends.

I started vaping weed instead and dont drink at all now. I feel more hydrated, cleaner, better looking, getting more p*ssy, etc etc.

So i guess speaking from my own expierence, you have to find something that you enjoy and is worth more to you than the fun from doing coke.

I bet that you enjoy your life a lot better when your off coke. For so many reasons im sure you could think of.

Just use marijuana anyway. Seriously.

I know my addiction was a lot lighter thsn yours. But i hope that helped OP.

 

[Jasonmask]

One thing I don’t like op are fukking quitters