I'm perpetually fukkin' miserable. [DEARDIARY.gif] AMA
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Alcohol I agree but without MJ i seriously think I would've put my hands on somebody by now. Im not proud of it but I need to work myself into a space mentally where THC doesn't feel like a requirement to tolerate humans.
Also, in terms of counseling I touched on that in OP. Surely there exists a therapist somewhere that lives in this realm of understanding. I have no idea how to seek them out. I have more success making "psycho" posts like these online than I do trying to find somebody who spent their life trying to coach these sheep back into the herd, than finding someone equipped to handle a ram that flat out refuses to fall back in line. (sorry bears brehs for referring to myself as a ram, it just made more sense within context)
Seriously, think about it. These people went to school to help those find comfort within the Matrix. This system is not set up to deal with a bunch of BBGs that aint going along with the get along.
i respect what you saying frfr just like i said in OP it is by the grace of God and ONLY the grace of God that I have gotten anywhere in life at all. Sure, faith without the work I put in wouldnt have amounted to shyt. I understand that without his love and covering in the first place I would not have had the strength to perform the works.
That dont got shyt to do with the fact of how fukked up the world is. Whatever his reasoning is, it did NOT HAVE to be this way. fukk a free will nikka make me a robot the fukk we doin????? How is free will better than having to deal with murder, rape, human trafficking, and all the other absolute evil atrocities in the world? I already know you finna be like "God's Plan" and that's fine because yeah you're right. Dont mean I gotta like it.
What you thought you was doing with this post? Whatever you think you know, you dont, bytch ass mofugga cause if you did you wouldve just said it. You not the first nikka to front like he know better when really you just a pawn. fukk outta here, herb.
Your epiphany isn’t brand new. I can tell you still got your mom’s milk on your cheeks.
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Life is absurd. Lean into it.
If you're a reader, check out Albert Camus The Stranger and The Plague. He talks about evil and meaninglessness.
Yes. the world is a dark and evil place, but you can't let that consume you because people have always suffered. You have to realize you don't have control over that and you're only one person. The best we can do is be better for the people in our lives and surround yourself with the people you love, and find happiness where you can.
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Oh u worrying about all the wrong shyt than OP.. i could never give that much of a fukk about nothing that i cant control..yea yea the world is bad, who gives a fukk and if u could do something to stop it u probably wouldnt..take yo ass to the army if u care that much..go put in some work nikka..foh wit all that crying and shyt p*ssyAlcohol I agree but without MJ i seriously think I would've put my hands on somebody by now. Im not proud of it but I need to work myself into a space mentally where THC doesn't feel like a requirement to tolerate humans.
Also, in terms of counseling I touched on that in OP. Surely there exists a therapist somewhere that lives in this realm of understanding. I have no idea how to seek them out. I have more success making "psycho" posts like these online than I do trying to find somebody who spent their life trying to coach these sheep back into the herd, than finding someone equipped to handle a ram that flat out refuses to fall back in line. (sorry bears brehs for referring to myself as a ram, it just made more sense within context)
Seriously, think about it. These people went to school to help those find comfort within the Matrix. This system is not set up to deal with a bunch of BBGs that aint going along with the get along.
i respect what you saying frfr just like i said in OP it is by the grace of God and ONLY the grace of God that I have gotten anywhere in life at all. Sure, faith without the work I put in wouldnt have amounted to shyt. I understand that without his love and covering in the first place I would not have had the strength to perform the works.
That dont got shyt to do with the fact of how fukked up the world is. Whatever his reasoning is, it did NOT HAVE to be this way. fukk a free will nikka make me a robot the fukk we doin????? How is free will better than having to deal with murder, rape, human trafficking, and all the other absolute evil atrocities in the world? I already know you finna be like "God's Plan
What you thought you was doing with this post? Whatever you think you know, you dont, bytch ass mofugga cause if you did you wouldve just said it. You not the first nikka to front like he know better when really you just a pawn. fukk outta here, herb.
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Yeah I knew you were off up top. Thread further confirms things. Get off here & get actual help if not you’ll be in the same forever cycle you claim to broke free from
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Yall done tore all the bottom of ya shoes w/me!!!
Did the bears lose today?! Did Swift go down with a non contact injury,! 
I spent the first quarter of my life feeling like you OP.
On that fukk that world shyt and living wild.
This is gonna sound cheesy; but love changed it all.
Once love enters your life its really like sunshine on a cloudy day
Whats even better is that being a man means you're essentially like GOD in that circle of love.
Nothing outside of it matters and holds that dark weight you're currently bearing on your shoulders.
I can only take an educated guess on your physical age; but it sounds like you're about to be at a serious crossroads if you haven't already.
you gotta do some serious reflecting and start making some major decisions. Its now or never doggie.
bless.
On that fukk that world shyt and living wild.
This is gonna sound cheesy; but love changed it all.
Once love enters your life its really like sunshine on a cloudy day
Whats even better is that being a man means you're essentially like GOD in that circle of love.
Nothing outside of it matters and holds that dark weight you're currently bearing on your shoulders.
I can only take an educated guess on your physical age; but it sounds like you're about to be at a serious crossroads if you haven't already.
you gotta do some serious reflecting and start making some major decisions. Its now or never doggie.
bless.
I addressed dumb fukks like you in the OP already. You saw shyt for what it was, wet your pants cause yousa bytch and hurried up and jacked back into the matrix. Now you walk amongst these idiots as do I, except you choose to just play along to have a false sense of comfort until the day you die. It's not that i disagree with your stance seeing as how as far as I know that's the only way to cope with this world. I criticize you for criticizing ME as though oh I was supposed to just jack back in and relax too.
I respect your decision to be fake happy, but I reject the implication that everyone else should do the same, or else be [insert lame ass oldhead saying for young/inexperienced people here]
breh I appreciate the recommendation, really I do. I've read a lot of literature in my life and I have gained valuable knowledge from it. Unfortunately there has been nothing to solve this specific issue I'm having. Are you saying that after reading this book I'll feel less compassion for those being harmed nonstop 24/7? Or the systemic OPPRESSION we still face today? There's a cac in this thread who OF COURSE is the first reply running interference with a silly gif, one that I foreshadowed in the fukkin title? Do you think this is by chance? If that book can help me find peace in this living hell I'll purchase the shyt TODAY.
Your God must be overjoyed that he has such a devout follower with such a lack of compassion for others that he "could never give that much of a fukk about nothing that i cant control..yea yea the world is bad, who gives a fukk"
I was responding to you because I thought you were a solid dude coming from a genuine place, instead you're probably the exact 9-5 gettin by ass bozo i referenced in the OP. Dont waste your time trying to prove otherwise, I don't care.
breh it's hard enough finding a MANI spent the first quarter of my life feeling like you OP.
On that fukk that world shyt and living wild.
This is gonna sound cheesy; but love changed it all.
Once love enters your life its really like sunshine on a cloudy day
Whats even better is that being a man means you're essentially like GOD in that circle of love.
Nothing outside of it matters and holds that dark weight you're currently bearing on your shoulders.
I can only take an educated guess on your physical age; but it sounds like you're about to be at a serious crossroads if you haven't already.
you gotta do some serious reflecting and start making some major decisions. Its now or never doggie.
bless.
to understand this shyt I'm breaking down, where you expect me to find a woman to understand this shyt 
ironically, the last woman I met in real life who saw the world for what is really was and didn't shy from it I first met through message boards lol. I can't be happy with no bird brained ass bytch that I gotta explain everything to, I'd honestly rather be alone. Again the commoner who reads this will interpret it completely different than those who get it, but I'm not entertaining the plebeians today. I'll get back on my easy-going fukkery tomorrow.I addressed dumb fukks like you in the OP already. You saw shyt for what it was, wet your pants cause yousa bytch and hurried up and jacked back into the matrix. Now you walk amongst these idiots as do I, except you choose to just play along to have a false sense of comfort until the day you die. It's not that i disagree with your stance seeing as how as far as I know that's the only way to cope with this world. I criticize you for criticizing ME as though oh I was supposed to just jack back in and relax too.
I respect your decision to be fake happy, but I reject the implication that everyone else should do the same, or else be [insert lame ass oldhead saying for young/inexperienced people here]
breh I appreciate the recommendation, really I do. I've read a lot of literature in my life and I have gained valuable knowledge from it. Unfortunately there has been nothing to solve this specific issue I'm having. Are you saying that after reading this book I'll feel less compassion for those being harmed nonstop 24/7? Or the systemic OPPRESSION we still face today? There's a cac in this thread who OF COURSE is the first reply running interference with a silly gif, one that I foreshadowed in the fukkin title? Do you think this is by chance? If that book can help me find peace in this living hell I'll purchase the shyt TODAY.
Your God must be overjoyed that he has such a devout follower with such a lack of compassion for others that he "could never give that much of a fukk about nothing that i cant control..yea yea the world is bad, who gives a fukk"
I was responding to you because I thought you were a solid dude coming from a genuine place, instead you're probably the exact 9-5 gettin by ass bozo i referenced in the OP. Dont waste your time trying to prove otherwise, I don't care.
breh it's hard enough finding a MAN
I think you misinterpreted; love is way more then just having a girlfriend/wife.
you touched on it that if you had buku bucks you'd be on an island with your circle of family n friends......
thats what im saying....
the world is literally yours.
to me all that matters is what goes on under my roof and on my land.
Everything outside of that....
you are the director, writer, and producer. and you pick the cast.
this may be only for MY case....
but I only care about what my loved ones think/feel.
Anyone else is
..... or ill put it to your straight like this.
If you stressed and having these juvenile feelings you're probably unfifiled and seeking validation
P.S.
stop wasting time trying to explain shyt to birds