I'm perpetually fukkin' miserable. [DEARDIARY.gif] AMA

[boogers]

You said God In ya post. But do u really have a relationship with him cause u sound miserable. God brings TRUE joy.

it kills me that there are posters blabbering on about god and family on the same forum as godless-ass JBO. triple dipped double penetration, dislocated knees, busted hernias, hot cream splashing yakubian anal right? but youre godly huh. cos if theres one thing god loves, its degenerate porno right?

 

[seymour cake]

it kills me that there are posters blabbering on about god and family on the same forum as godless-ass JBO. triple dipped double penetration, dislocated knees, busted hernias, hot cream splashing yakubian anal right? but youre godly huh. cos if theres one thing god loves, its degenerate porno right?

Man STFU foh nikka

 

[MMS]

@MMS

anyone following the abrahamic belief should foremost understand we live in a world with free will and free choice of destination

but what is never known is how many times you've been born, how many times you lived successfully or unsuccessfully, what people were placed around you

i think the transaction mindset with God is what keeps people miserable (worshipping the Baals/Lords)

its not explained in christian dogma well but the ownership "daemon" is a real thing and afflicts people in ways that you may never fully contemplate in totality in your lifetime. Islam has a good take on this phenomena but its usually explained with christians and jews as just anti-materialism but its actually deeper than that

imagine entities that commoditize everything, then convince you to commoditize everything

that your first instinct when you investigate a matter is to gauge it to something else. Animals don't necessarily do this, and neither do babies. Yet noone ever says to other people how toxic that pattern is.

If you truly go without you can see some of the patterns such that the things that come to you naturally youll start accurately attributing it to God. Its along the lines of we experience reality but the burden of fashioning it was never put on us. Yet the people in positions of "power" would have you believe that it is what you must do to be fulfilled but it couldnt be more wrong

i hope threadstarter can find some deeper meaning to themself that doesnt include the things you do/things you own/position in life to find true satisfaction (not necessarily happiness) but satisfaction

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[MMS]

it kills me that there are posters blabbering on about god and family on the same forum as godless-ass JBO. triple dipped double penetration, dislocated knees, busted hernias, hot cream splashing yakubian anal right? but youre godly huh. cos if theres one thing god loves, its degenerate porno right?

respectfully...

on the first page of the good book, God made the whole heavens and earth and made his last actions to create males and females in his image after his likeness (feminine plural)

so the image of God is not at the top of the page but the bottom of the page which is an allegory to the pattern of love making

and it does say that when Adam knew his wife she would be known as the "mother of all the living" implying when people have sex they are in fact causing beasts, fish, birds and creeping things to also procreate

thats why clothing/coverings were seen as confusing to the LORD God in the garden

but if you take the pauline narrative as truth this fundamental part of the scriptures is completely lost

Surah Yusuf - 1-111 - Quran.com

Read and listen to Surah Yusuf. The Surah was revealed in Mecca, ordered 12 in the Quran. The Surah title means "Joseph" in English and consists of 11...

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Kama Sutra - Wikipedia

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[BBG]

@MMS I feel like you spitting and I consider myself far more intelligent than the average individual but even I'm having a hard time following are you juelzing spirituality or are you saying something that doesn't require faith to believe?











Either way Josh Allen just lost and I love that for Lamar Jackson, don't even ask me how

 

[Da_Eggman]

Welcome to the club

 

[MMS]

@MMS I feel like you spitting and I consider myself far more intelligent than the average individual but even I'm having a hard time following are you juelzing spirituality or are you saying something that doesn't require religion to believe?











Either way Josh Allen just lost and I love that for Lamar Jackson, don't even ask me how

fixed

you are born with no knowledge, so priestly understandings ultimately corrupt a person despite all sayings

IE what is more important, words when spoken or the medium they are transcribed on?

put another way: before you understood language what was true?

 

[BBG]

fixed

you are born with no knowledge, so priestly understandings ultimately corrupt a person despite all sayings

IE what is more important, words when spoken or the medium they are transcribed on?

put another way: before you understood language what was true?

nikka I don't know I was talking at 2 years old


All jokes aside though, i get what you saying but how does that help me find peace in this bullshyt ass world? Like I said I'm good now I'm watching football and enjoying time with my daughter but when I drop her off it's gonna get dark again.. I wish I could dumb myself down and choose not to care like most people. But this type of awareness is just like vision. You can't unsee what's already been seen. Literally.

 

[The Prince of All Saiyans]

But this our year when it comes to the da bears

 

[MMS]

nikka I don't know I was talking at 2 years old


All jokes aside though, i get what you saying but how does that help me find peace in this bullshyt ass world? Like I said I'm good now I'm watching football and enjoying time with my daughter but when I drop her off it's gonna get dark again.. I wish I could dumb myself down and choose not to care like most people. But this type of awareness is just like vision. You can't unsee what's already been seen. Literally.

have you ever watched from start to finish how your food gets to you?

would you trade places with it?

that said the internet since it came out is filled with people who are trying to escape normal communication channels

so by default, the algorithms are feeding you escapists

similar to no fap, try a no log on for a week and see how you feel. I got off facebook and I don't miss it at all

but time to time i do miss the short but beautiful myspace period, that was the goat

 

[BBG]

have you ever watched from start to finish how your food gets to you?

would you trade places with it?

that said the internet since it came out is filled with people who are trying to escape normal communication channels

so by default, the algorithms are feeding you escapists

similar to no fap, try a no log on for a week and see how you feel. I got off facebook and I don't miss it at all

but time to time i do miss the short but beautiful myspace period, that was the goat

As simple as that advice is, you're absolutely right breh reading these NPC posts on fb is sorta like masochism. It pains/infuriates me reading the shyt, but I have refused to stop. I stopped posting on social media shortly after COVID, thinking that would be good enough.... But it isn't. The problem was never me responding; it was entertaining the bullshyt in the the place. I gotta just disconnect entirely.



Thanks breh, seriously. Coli undefeated for black folk I fukkin love this place

 

[maxamusa]

I was with you until you started assuming nonsense again. Why cant nikkas ever make a decent point without fukking it up with silly inferences

"If you stressed and having these juvenile feelings you're probably unfifiled and seeking validation"

This let's me know you really don't get it. You are AFFECTED by these people outside of your "cast" whether you like it or not. You do not have to leave your house for this to occur. Turn the TV on, go online, read the newspaper. Sure, you can abstain from these things individually, but what I'm arguing is the practicality. One cannot live an entire life ONLY dealing with their cast members. The island is your best chance which is why I said it but its still not 100%. So because these people have the ability to effect my life (however big or small) it pisses me the fukk off. Bill Gates is not immune to this. Elon Musk is not immune to this. Sean Carter is not immune to this. I am speaking on a systemic virus that isn't partial to wealth, fame, or notoriety.


You tell me to stop wasting my time, but what would you consider this post I'm typing right now? I'm breaking down just how clueless you actually are and how you haven't actually said anything profound. Like it or not, you ARE playing the pretend game, and you've gotten so good at it you genuinely feel a sense of happiness. I love that for you, but don't piss in my glass and call it lemonade.




To be clear, you're a good poster and make me laugh more often than not. I do not have an issue with you. I am genuinely happy you found happiness, and I'm not envious. I know for a fact I too can have that brand of happiness if I decide to bend over and just allow life to have it's way with me like everyone else does. Fact is I'm just not going to be happy until I figure out a better solution.



I fukk with this, and have seriously considered the whole rejecting consumerism helping others shyt. Problem is this. Whatever impact I have on the world will be next to nothing. And that's not discrediting just myself, look at MLK/Malcolm X. nikkas went HARD in their respective times getting shyt done making hella changes....and for what? For dumb stupid ignorant nikkas to step on everything he was TRULY fighting for, reap the benefits of the CR Movement sure, but as for the expectation of dumbass nikkas to keep that shyt going and further progress?! best you're gonna get is Umar "Donations" Johnson and Tariq FBAMAGA Nasheed good fukking luck nikkas


It's all for naught man. I hate feeling like this, but all the advice I've been given in this thread just feels like masks and "feel good" opportunities. The feel good opportunities don't feel so good when you know for certain you're wasting your time IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS.


That's enough negativity for now, and I do apologize for spewing so much in a place where nikkas just wanna escape and have fun. I get it, for real. Let me climb back in my lurk hole until I can play the game with the brehs too.


P.S. @cyndaquil i forgot to address your last point about tolerating people who don't share my mindset. I love to hear differing points of views. I would be just like the rest of the idiots if all I sought after was my own personal echo chamber. The shyt im talking about though, rejecting it is like rejecting mathematics. There isn't room to argue; one thing plus another of that one thing makes two things. I'm not tolerating any "well actually" brehs trying to argue semantics. That is how I view people who disagree with me about this one thing.

I'm all for debating the debatable.

IDK breh. I'm a knuckle head. and I know nothing. I was just genuinely trying to offer suggestions.


from what I've seen I feel like we have a lot more similarities then differences


maybe I missed the whole premise of this shyt. either way I wish you the best and hope you can somehow find some peace in this madness we call life.

 

[maxamusa]

I have my daughter for the weekend and the bears finna pack out the Rams tomorrow. My mental/spiritual agony has been postponed until Monday. Everything I've written I stand by and agree with but @maxamusa was right it's something about being everything to my little girl that makes me soldier through this shyt. I told y'all before I had a baby I lived without purpose and I was a legit crash out because I didn't give a fukk about life.


Well she's here now so the darkest times for me is when she's not with me. The minute I see her lil smiling face everything suddenly gets better. Yes I'm aware I've made myself extremely vulnerable and some Internet dweeb will use this against me and say nasty things about my parenting and/or my daughter but that's okay because I made it clear in the OP I don't respect most of you nikkas anyway Have a great day B.A.N.s

word I didn't know you were a a pops....my highlight of 2025 was taking vacations with the seeds......life changing dawg I hold that shyt so close

 

[MMS]

As simple as that advice is, you're absolutely right breh reading these NPC posts on fb is sorta like masochism. It pains/infuriates me reading the shyt, but I have refused to stop. I stopped posting on social media shortly after COVID, thinking that would be good enough.... But it isn't. The problem was never me responding; it was entertaining the bullshyt in the the place. I gotta just disconnect entirely.



Thanks breh, seriously. Coli undefeated for black folk I fukkin love this place

im on both forums now, even @Buddy site

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i visited a greek orthodox church and it completely changed the way i interpret religion because before that the idea of a "liturgical service" was foreign to me

but now when I see other traditions its painful to listen to "pastoral" services because deep down your relationship with God is 1 to 1. And even Christ said that he would separate the goats and sheep in his flock

"The dark side of the Force is a pathway to many abilities some consider to be unnatural..."

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so their service to me was a real reflection of what was observed in ancient times. It also opened my mind to judaism and islam atleast to contemplate them in sincerity

 

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]

it kills me that there are posters blabbering on about god and family on the same forum as godless-ass JBO. triple dipped double penetration, dislocated knees, busted hernias, hot cream splashing yakubian anal right? but youre godly huh. cos if theres one thing god loves, its degenerate porno right?

That's what goes down in JBO?