This is why I fukk with you as a poster. You always keep it real and honest.
I’m starting to come to terms that my parents have exhausted themselves or just don’t love me like that.
shyt aint nice watching your parents love you less as the years pass and watching them devote themselves to becoming grandparents.
I just wish they had more material shyt to give me as a headstart or just not had me if they werent cut out for the next 18 years.
I mean...your parents love you...but
I think parenting is weirdly hostile thing...because it's creating another person, in your image and holding them hostage as you take care of them...since they are helpless and ignorant of their world that they are in...
Some people are just better at taking care of their hostages as than others...
Like you don't even have full access of your mental capabilities until you are 25...that's why in the USA and I am sure elsewhere, you can't even run for any political office until you are 25...so you are pretty dumb for a quarter of your life...
You shouldn't be forced into a situation where you are homeless as you go to finish high school at 18...while you got a grown ass man just able to chill out just cause...
Maybe it's like...your parents just see you as an afterthought...they rather be grandparents...and have their life back..
A lot of Black parents think...if their kid got food, a roof over their head and clean clothes..then they did good enough...and you as a child should be thankful. I think a lot of Black parents underestimate what it takes to make a fully independent adult. It takes more than 18 years. It takes around 22 to 25 years.
If you have parents like mine...who are really progressive as far as Black parenting goes and probably even close to White parent status...then you are better off...
I know I can depend on my parents...my parents would never just let me be assed out if I am doing the right thing but I just got fukked up out here...
In most other cultures...children live with their parents until they find a mate...
Like my family friend was able to fukk up college, stay home, go back to college, marry a doctor or a pharmacist or some shyt...get a house next door to his parents...have a kid and move to a new city and start this "adult" life at 28...and he's Black American...like he's not Jamaican or whatever...regular nikka....
You should be able to do that...
18 and get out is stupid as fukk...
Nobody else does that...
Hit me up if you need anything...
I am an American breh...but I don't like seeing young Black men struggle...