The Best Part About The Blog Was Paz Having A Crush On Omar Gooding And Donnie Jeffcoat From Wild & Crazy Kids
yeah..... i also had a thing for tommy the green ranger as a kid. he was hot @ the time.

i can tell you most of the guy crushes i've had. forgot about some. to think that 10 years ago, i was asking sohh on how i should approach this chick that i FORCED myself to have a crush on because i felt i had to like a chick in order to validate myself. there was tons of sh!t i was doing in order to convince myself that i was straight such as not masturbating to chicks. at one point, i was deep on that "no masturbation" sh!t.
i wonder if god tua and cleansing knew that i was gay before i came out. god tua and me used to talk to each other on pm back when i used to be on some homophobic sh!t back as a teen on sohh. anybody in here suspected that i was gay before i announced it?

i guess gaydar is sort of real because for some reason, some of the gay dudes that i was around like say in high school and college, picked up on it.

i could only run away for so long until i had to just deal with it because i felt that someone probably was going to yank me out the closet if i didn't just come out to myself. there were some incidents that happened last year where i realized that whatever i was doing to make myself gay wasn't working because some gay dudes around me were basically like "we know you're gay. why are you hiding it?" gaydar is real.
and oh yeah, rest in peace to matthew shepherd. dude died about 14 years ago this past friday.
