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Ive lived under conditions so destitute as a child I don't even consider situations I've had to live under as an adult to be destitute...Even though I've lived under situations worse than yours if that 830 a month,using heaters,riding the bus was your definition of extreme
)...From a kid until my late teens there were times we would go without food,wouldnt have lights,gas,or water at the same damn time...Sometimes for years at a time we wouldn't have multiple utilities....What you know about taking shyts on top of shyts cuz you cant flush the toilet,shytting in trash bags cuz you cant flush,or being sent to steal water from out the side of the neighbors house in the middle of the night,worried you might get shot by some Willie Manchester azz nikka
?Not having electricity for nearly a year sumtimes,aint nobody tryna do homework by a candle in the wintertime....Plus I lived in the era where utility companys had no problem cutting your heat off in the winter time if you didnt pay....Heaters and stoves wasnt even always optional,Ive had to sleep outside,slept in cars,slept on buses,slept in shelters...Living around other people in poverty,and people feeling sorry for your family,because yalls poverty level aint even normal to them,all because ya mama don't wanna take welfare or help from her family....only coli members from third world countrys probaly had it as bad or worse than me.
Like I said I did everything you talking about just recently.
I woke up at 345am to mop up my shyt every day, off the floor coming out of one toilet into the other inoperable bathroom.
filled with my own shyt and sixteen PitBulls shyt coming into the other malfunctioning toilet every day for four years plus straight just recently no less than sixteen to eighteen months ago.
My last five years been a systematic blur just as anyone who endured what I have just as you.
I am far from the guy speaking from no experience or braintrust.
So, if you wanna get into a pissing contest about what you endured I just endured it and I never did anything to warrant being there.
Just like anyone born into it.
Yet people like you self equate from some stuck up place and forgot where and how it really is.
In other words forgetting where you came from.
Even after doing everything others did not and more.
I slept in shelters and had a homeless letter that never materialized in to the luck of section eight housing, just recently.
I came up on welfare.
to not be on welfare and then back on it like they want you to.
Now not on it and don't have any issue with being on it again, cause I have no fear of it like you do as you did as a scared little boy born into the situation.
To the point I know in Chicago what day and time to show up to get all the ammenties in one afternoon.
That America markets will happen but most people think it is a lie cause they don't really know the system.
That most people in general think is automatic and it is a overcrowded lottery and waiting list system backed up twenty years.
Even after you get into and know the system..it all does not work from a housing standpoint.
I was given a house because I am a good person and took care of the woman.
Who after i met her, and cared for just because i knew sumfin was awry with her.
who was seeking refuge from her own brother raping her in said house.
Forcing her to flee just because of the sheer danger she was in and re-experiencing trauma.
Other, nikkaz would have lied and lead her on and fukked it all up.
Yet since I have game and not a cheater swag based fake nikka.
I was given what most never get.
I had to sleep in my boots and it is documented in the Chicago thread for days and weeks at a time.
I have thwarted push in's every day and night for months for years out the blue.
any time of the day and still had to be lucky enough I never came home to a group in masks with the worse planned and the threat coming from a guy incestuously raping his own sister, at the bare minimum.
Even after not having a house filled with pit bulls.
This same house is the hood getaway route for when nikkaz get to changing nikkas.
so every day multiple times a day nikkaz is trying to come through my gate someone has pulled off the hinges.
to make it easier to shoot a nikka and just hit the dip which is my actual place I stay.
To the point the police killed a guy making that hold onto the fence post right into my yard.
Which is documented in the Chicago thread.
The same girl who killed and was a FrontPage story about deaths west of stoney to Inglewood was on that same block.
When she not the only one active.
To the point if you look at nikkaz in that areas rap records and j card pictures.
They are showing that same house on my block everyday.
To the point I can not even do shyt in my own house because of activity out of my own control.
To the point I could be destitute from one police interview doing what he wants.
Regardless of what some laws say on the back end.
In a real locale with a real police force.
Not that one cop per ninety square miles radius that is a rule in the state you are from.
Someone broke my water line in said house.
so my front room flooded everyday just to fill water bottles to wash up.
To bath with water heated in the microwave every day twice a day because I was a cna.
Wrangling shyt and hoping i would get the bread to possibly pay for MRI school with no real address of my own except for said house.
The water situation, i did not find what the issue was.
Or how to fix it till the entire gypsum in the house had melted from moisture allowing me to fix it.
Which took four months, to find.
When engineering and logic or certs did not aid me finding it like my training said it should.
This is all just for starters the past three to four years just recently from 2011 to 2014.
shyt I don't know cause I had to figure out problems daily.
you speak on every morning at 3am, period without fail.
That I could not be concerned with time like normal people do.
Yet, i need to be abreast of time more than anyone.
STILLNOTSOFT said:
Its funny poverty breeds different mindsets,my oldest sister worked hard and actually did her work by the candlelight,or would walk long distance for somewhere she could sit that had light
...She worked hard,went to college,got a degree and now is pretty successful....My other sister is basically a gold digger who decided to date and marry a rich dude who takes care of her
....Me?as a early teen as soon as I realized it ways to get money,i did that....from po hustling,to working salary jobs,odd jobs,i was doin it all to try to help my family so we didn't have to live under those conditions,i wanted the money right then and now.....if it wasnt homo,armed robbery,or selling crack
.. i was pretty open to do it,as a youngin I was outchea networking...If anything I could say you sound like you didn't come up in poverty and were priveldged,because you sound like minor poverty caught you off guard and damn near beat all the life out of you
The difference with me,is I always expected poverty to catch me as an adult,without some Illuminati cacs giving me a wakeup call,and blackballing me from everywhere supposedly....As a teen I ran from it,as an adult I ran from it,and I still run from it now....and vowed to never live under the type of horrible situation I did as a kid....So based on that alone,i don't feel like you as a grown man did everything you could to not be as fukked up as you were..
One thing you didn't do was accept help
WRONG TO say, I never accepted help, but when there is no resource group or help to aid you how you need.
You have to still be highly resourceful and of which I am resourceful on a level that extends past what nikka know to be generally true.
STILLNOT SOFT said:
which is exactly the type of person I was talking about in my original post....Either you had no friends,family or bytches willing to help you even a little,which is truly a sad situation....or you rejected all help out of pride,yet you wasted time down at the welfare office,which I could've told you was a waste of your time as early as a teenager being a single male
....I don't see how you can really be in the streets and have gained no social connections,hussle connections,have no ho's and are relying soley on this 830 a month
?
But don't act like what I said was some fairy tale shyt,most nikkas aint black balled by illuminati cacs they pissed off in a board room
....But because you were supposedly,you wanna act like getting roommates,or living at home with moms,or with a chick while you save some bread,is some godly shyt no normal man could pull off
....You cant in one breath say hardly anyone has been in your situation,then turn around act like your situation is the norm and every nikka out here is stuck.
And its even easier for nikkas now,they don't have to have a single connection of any kind,as long as they can get to a internet connection....You don't gotta find out through somebodys cousins auntee,that they brother is renting out a room,you can just go online......If ou realize your urban city is a fukked up place to live in poverty,and theres no oppurtunities,you don't have to just pack up and move blindly....you can apply for a job online,get the job before you even touch down
...nikkas got It waaaay easier than we had it,and you in here tallin em "its impossible odds yall
"...I didn't give advice to get wealthy because I"ve never been that....I gave advice to get a leg up so a car breaking down,or losing a job suddenly,doesnt IMMEDIATELY have you fukked up....That's the only advice I am suited to give,I leave the getting wealthy conversation to people who have been there.
I do agree with the part about a lot of priveldged people being in this thread,or at least misguided people....Maybe I'm wrong but nikkas who can afford Gucci belts,flat screens,jordans are not people I consider to be in poverty....They are just nikkas who are bad with money,who may have come from poverty....But they aint missin a meal,and have probably been enabled by they parents they live with,welfare system or b/f/(g/f) to blow they bread on that shyt...so yeah,them nikkas might live AMONG poverty by choice,but you cant compare them to people living IN poverty.
One you self equated and speak past the general rule.
plus we know you don't read in full.
As you skimmed what I am talking about and for you to think people have relatives or a resource group readily is because you self equated from your rule and idea everyone has relatives and siblings or a resource group at their disposal.
In chicago I had no relatives or family like that, period.
Past mom and dad, so every resource group member I made.
was from my own social setup and I happened to prosper from the ground up.
Plus, was blackballed so all the salary jobs and shyt you got to do did not exist.
All the work you talembout did not exist and finding a job after Losing two never materialized.
Even with multiple certs and recent class based qualifications.
Plus, being apart of programs that were railroaded from rod Blagojevich being nabbed by the feds.
Yet I still woke up every morning to mop my own shyt and sixteen pitbulls and a homie i housed to help in how harsh Chicago is everyday twice a day.
Then take it out to the trash in plastic bags everyday twice a day.
I had a house given to me from really helping people for real.
Now, I am in the come up role and got a vette and then it will be more and more.
With being blackballed and doing more than you because I been through more than you as an actualized adult.
Plus done more and know more which is why nikkaz fukk with me on a level just on here you are never approaching.
With a stolen life, and having the ability to do what others would not and I continued to get certs and build.
When I was on death's door, losing fifty pounds of muscle in five weeks and dropping from a brolic 186 to 134.
, since I invested in my future in medical I could not move around like I previously did to get out of this in the shortcut manner.
Most people like to champion hustling.
nikkaz subscribe to when it comes to the trap.
Yet still had to and still had to make it without fail in a cop infested neighborhood that was even as extreme if not more than the actual activity taking place on just the block.
Let alone the actual neighborhood.
So spare me all your stillnotsoft attacks at the realest nikka alive's cred.
as I actually did all the shyt and more nikkaz say they do or endured and not from that pedigree at all.
Yet because I am prescient and smart enough to understand knowledge and how bleak the world is.
I actually knew to create a homeless contingency plan that exists in real time solutions given the actual complexion of the actual times.
Which i just used to make it out, and i know how bleak it is.
Which is why i know about the general rule and not basing life on extreme exceptions to the rule.
Where nikkaz say you not supposed to have done none of it coming from a two parent home.
Yet, I did it all and did it further from a larger extreme than nikkaz like you who shortsighted and critical.
Just because you envious of nikkaz who come from better stock than you did.
Ol divisive little nikka in the shelter face ass nikka.
When we all in the damn shelter.
Plus, you lack culture as well.
You not enduring nuffin nobody else has not being out there as the standard rule.
you did not have to endure it as an adult who already beat the game with his life stolen.
So, you can have resentment cause you have ownership to a life that you are falsely informed to think only happens to people who are born into poverty.
I noticed you ain't said shyt about during the recession at all, just when you was a kid.
You ain't said shyt about ever beating the game and having it stolen and having real enemies.
Then starting from nuffin and also navigating around international/federal and state warrants.
That just last week came to fukk my shyt up.
you are your own enemy and I grow tired of you trying to pick and try to make me your enemy cause you still soft as fukk, my nikka.
I also know not to be critical of what nikkaz pockets is like you cause you were not able to do what they were and do not have a human connection to get on with the very group your are jealous/envious of.
Which also shows you still, to soft.
Yeah, you were poverty stricken and you talk like someone who is soft as fukk and forgot where you came from cause you running from poverty instead of embracing the real character building that you missed achieving from being jaded to being in poverty.
Art Barr
these mods are not fukking around...