murksiderock
Superstar
She’s following deny, deny, deny to save face. I hope she finds it within herself to at least face the truth... you deserve to know the truth...
I was just talking to my cousin about this, my mom's sister's daughter. And she said the same, especially given the fact that my upbringing was so choppy and challenging. I'm human man, I have siblings who don't care to know their parent that they dont know, and I understand that (one of my brother's says "you can't miss what you never had"). It has a different emotional effect on me though, I'm 30, and I have a dad, so I'm not looking for a father figure...
But there's been a hole internally, a void as long as I can remember, built from the disconnect between my family and I. As I alluded to earlier, that void is so deep---->its mostly healed, because as an adult I've been able to obtain the information and relationships needed to heal, but unbeknownst to me the void is so deep that I still feel it and still fight to ignore those wounds...
Ultimately I just told my cousin, this may be the beginning of that internal emotional closure. One significant door just closed in my life with finality a week ago, the chapter with my kids mom and I. Here's a door opening that, on the surface, is unrelated, but subconsciously and spiritually I think has a lot more metaphorical and physical connection than the naked mind/eye realizes. One chapter closing, another one opening...
It also somewhat validates an urge to go back to Sacramento, which besides visits, i haven't lived there as an adult. And I've felt a calling for a little while now that I need to return, never chalked it up to more than homesickness. Now I'm considering that urge again may be more on a subconscious and spiritual level...