Life aint fair. Rip

[Tflasha]

It shole aintthis is heartbreaking to read. May God bless you and your family

 

[Miss Lucifer's Love]

fukk. I wish I could hug you both. Please just be there for each other. Cry, scream, do whatever, but do it together. You need each other. My husband and I went through a similar loss and only realized years later that we were both hurting bad but separately. Almost broke us. But we had other kids to live and work for and they deserve the best life we can provide, just like the one we lost.

It sounds like you're starting to heal, as much as that is possible, and it's good that you're trying to find some semblance of the new norm. Keep working in those directions and be graceful with yourself and your wife. It's hard, it gets easier.

My heart aches for you and your family. Sending so much love and peace.

 

[TaxCollector13459]

My son died. June 29th 2020. It was 2 days before his 10th birthday. He was my favorite person in the world. My first born son is 16 and a great athlete. I have 5 year old twin boys with locs and theyre the cutest kids ever. Been married to my only baby mama for over 10 years. But its been damn near a year and I wish I never had kids and a family. Therapy and zoloft helped me no longer want to die, but I struggle daily to find something to live for. Wife is a husk of herself. Just broken. Im trying though. Just recorded an episode of my podcast for the first time since... working on getting the book I finished last May published. Even wrote 3 chapters in the novel Im working on. But shyts hard. Me and God still aint right. I’d just gotten up the energy to start working on me a month or so ago. Lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks from eating right and working out. Started hooping again. Then I tore my achilles about 2.5 weeks ago. Had surgery Monday. Been laid up in my room alone all week. Our friend and her girls had moved in with us for a few months due to some tough times and they moved out last weekend. Immediately the wife gets our kids back in their rooms. Thats cool. We talked about the biggest room being an office/guest room and moving the 16 yr old into a smaller room. What does she do? Moves all her shyt into that room. No discussions, nothing. I know she’s probably mad cause I wasn’t very supportive on Mother’s day, but I was injured and had to quarantine before surgeryz and she’d previously told me she just wanted to spend the day with her mom, it being her first mothers day since our boy passed, and oh yea, her dad (the best man Ive ever known) died 2 months ago so it was her moms first mothers day without him. Instead she sat on the couch silent all day after barely talking all week. I didnt know what to do. So yea, she’s brought me food and water 2/3 times a day but hasnt spent more than 1 extra minute in here all week. So shyt sucks. Ive been fukked up all year missing my boy. I try to take solace in the knowledge that many people lose children. But damn if I don’t sometimes want to get this shyt over with. If it wasn’t for these other kids I probably would have. Its crazy that you can go your whole life being you and doing you and be good. Then you have kids and all the sudden they matter more than you. I was a whole ass man before they even existed and now one is taken from me and I aint shyt. I dont feel like a whole person anymore. Hell I can barely say his name still. I dont know why Im posting all this. Maybe the Oxy got to me, but shyt is rough man

Keep ya head up bra

 

[smitty22]

Damn. Nobody should ever have to bury their child. Truly sorry for your loss and praying for you and your family

 

[BlackBall]

That’s bleak

 

[QU Hectic]

Rest In Power to your young king and my prayers go to you and yours. As some one wise once told me Daily span of life decreases, The youth daily disappears, The days that are past do never return, Time eats down the earth,
And Life and wealth are not permanent,
For they are like the tide and lightning,
But this should never be for a being just brought into this world. But always remember one thing, he is in a world, a paradise that You and I have yet to see. Stay up and strong, Breh.

 

[malleymal]

I know that time’s are tough bro. You never get over losing someone like that, but remember how important you are to those children you mentioned. They are there for you. If you have the ability to get counseling, please do so with your wife. It’s not easy, but your life is worth it.

you picked yourself up once, and you can do it again. You can hit this board up. You see the support that you have here.

 

[DamienWayne]

Sending you love brother. God Bless your son.
He sounds like he was a beautiful boy with a loving family. Stay strong for your family but don't be afraid to take time to grieve when you need to , vent when you need to . Your brothers here will support you.

 

[Wildin]

I'm sorry you have to go through this fam.

 

[old pig]

I read this last night and felt I’d be selfish saying anything cuz I have not been in your situation...but I kept thinking back to a friend who took his life and the impact it had on his father...I’m not going to make this too long but you can see the devastation it had on him...but it also always concerned me most how much his change impacted his younger son then and probably to this day...the father gave up on him for reasons I can’t fathom and won’t judge...I ran into the other son a few years ago...married with 5 kids...hadn’t seen him since he was a teen...but we talked and conversation went toward his parents...mom was fine but his relationship with his father had been shattered ever since that time...they barely spoke...father never spent time with the grandkids...nothing...the younger son turned his life around despite being locked up many times...but he low key blames his father (who used to be strict but caring) for not being there when he was going thru his shyt growing up...despite things looking up for him at the time you could easily hear the pain in his voice and tell that it had been/will be a long time struggle for him...long story short, I can’t begin to put myself in your shoes and have no idea what to “advise” outside of going to therapy but I just wanted to illustrate how your kids need you and always will

 

[Heafcliffe]

Sorry to hear this, breh.

Like other's have said, I'd recommend therapy.

An unbiased listen may assist and provide insight and reflection.

As explained to me during my sessions, your emotions/ thought processes/ responses are natural.

I wish you the best during your journey.

 

[nahnah]

My condolences fam

 

[sicksoulja]

Wow I am so sorry bro your going through this, really put things in perspective that no matter what your going through somebody has it worse. I would suggest trying with everything you have left to be there for your wife. She needs you and that return love you need it back as well. You have two boys that needs you as well, and you need them. This is crushing man but your strong for this. I know it’s easy for someone else to say this but you will get through this. Your lady needs you more than ever just like you need her, make the move breh.

 

[Pimp]

Get off the meds.. Do everything in life you can and dedicate it to your son. You have to find reason.. Go 10X for you other kids. You have to be strong and hold the family together because I'm sure his brothers feel it too. When you're stressed try medical Marijuana.

 

[Yaboysix]

Damn, im sorry bro. I don't know wtf i would do if i lost one of my kids. I wouldn't be able to keep it together. You're a better man than i am.

Whats the name of your podcast, Bro? Ima subscribe.