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:mjcry: I’m so sorry brother. I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now. We talk a lot of shyt on here but if you need us , reach out.

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I've had a really close friend go through this, losing a child, and his father. It put him and his wife in a really dark place and we'd been friends since we were kids, I never seen my boy like this and I was his child's godfather. His wife didn't know how to cope and she withdrew but thankfully they survived. You will too breh, what you need is counseling and to lean on your friends. This can put you in a very dark place man, and don't hesitate to reach out to positive people. My DMs are open too we don't know each other but maybe I can share whatever I know.
 

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Sending you love and prayers breh. I admire the strength you have in being there for your family and trying to manage through such pain. I'm so sorry for the loss of your cherished son. Getting a long-term grief counselor really helped me get through a lot and have someone to talk to about my feelings and struggles. Also online support groups/meetups with others who have lost a child could perhaps be really helpful as well.

I also was very angry at God at a really dark period in my life because my close cousin was murdered, my best friend committed suicide and my mother passed from breast cancer all around the same time and it was a lot to take. But God still calls us to bring our anger and pain to Him so He can help us through it. Reading a few Psalms every day helps remind me that God is there to help us through our despair. And so we can later help others through theirs. He lost his own child and understands the depth of your pain and loves you and will help you through it. I know it may not seem like it now but there is hope and light on the other side of the darkness you are going through right now. Sending love and prayers to you breh.

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My son died. June 29th 2020. It was 2 days before his 10th birthday. He was my favorite person in the world. My first born son is 16 and a great athlete. I have 5 year old twin boys with locs and theyre the cutest kids ever. Been married to my only baby mama for over 10 years. But its been damn near a year and I wish I never had kids and a family. Therapy and zoloft helped me no longer want to die, but I struggle daily to find something to live for. Wife is a husk of herself. Just broken. Im trying though. Just recorded an episode of my podcast for the first time since... working on getting the book I finished last May published. Even wrote 3 chapters in the novel Im working on. But shyts hard. Me and God still aint right. I’d just gotten up the energy to start working on me a month or so ago. Lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks from eating right and working out. Started hooping again. Then I tore my achilles about 2.5 weeks ago. Had surgery Monday. Been laid up in my room alone all week. Our friend and her girls had moved in with us for a few months due to some tough times and they moved out last weekend. Immediately the wife gets our kids back in their rooms. Thats cool. We talked about the biggest room being an office/guest room and moving the 16 yr old into a smaller room. What does she do? Moves all her shyt into that room. No discussions, nothing. I know she’s probably mad cause I wasn’t very supportive on Mother’s day, but I was injured and had to quarantine before surgeryz and she’d previously told me she just wanted to spend the day with her mom, it being her first mothers day since our boy passed, and oh yea, her dad (the best man Ive ever known) died 2 months ago so it was her moms first mothers day without him. Instead she sat on the couch silent all day after barely talking all week. I didnt know what to do. So yea, she’s brought me food and water 2/3 times a day but hasnt spent more than 1 extra minute in here all week. So shyt sucks. Ive been fukked up all year missing my boy. I try to take solace in the knowledge that many people lose children. But damn if I don’t sometimes want to get this shyt over with. If it wasn’t for these other kids I probably would have. Its crazy that you can go your whole life being you and doing you and be good. Then you have kids and all the sudden they matter more than you. I was a whole ass man before they even existed and now one is taken from me and I aint shyt. I dont feel like a whole person anymore. Hell I can barely say his name still. I dont know why Im posting all this. Maybe the Oxy got to me, but shyt is rough man

I love you as a human being, bruh. You're handling things fine, believe it or not. Don't be overly critical of yourself.

I wish you and your fam all the best. Keep your son's memory alive with his siblings too. Don't be afraid to say his name and make sure they include him as a sibling. He will count forever because you'll love him forever. That doesn't die


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