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Ohene

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Got my glock, got the oxy, got the crown, got the pills. Gonna get this shyt done. Been praying all day. Shot still fukked.
dont do it breh. you have other children who rely on and love you.
you are stronger than this. it may not seem like it now, but as you mentioned you sought help and it was working. As soon as your injury heals things will look up breh
 

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i felt that shyt breh lost my mom an a brother in the same year when i was young an just recently lost my sister to cancer in 2019 i still aint right from that shyt between the Depression an the PTSD dealing with things i had to see her go through that year

she lived with it ( thankfully its not as bad as it used to be) was a good month an a half after the funeral where i'd wake up an i could just feel i didn't wanna be here anymore

i take care of my father now if i wasn't looking after him now some days i really don't know what I'd do

i know shyt is upside down for you an everyone involved but the worst thing you can do right now is lose your self in your emotions because people still need you an i know it is very easy to just say fukk it an give in most days

but nobody can force you outta that hole your in an its gonna take time to get out it doesn't have to be in leaps an bounds just small steps what could i do better today that i didn't do yesterday
this shyt goes for anybody experiencing these sorts of traumas


my inbox always open and im always down to politic. had no idea my brehs were going through so much. continue to be strong breh
 

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Got my glock, got the oxy, got the crown, got the pills. Gonna get this shyt done. Been praying all day. Shot still fukked.

Think of your family my brother. You have 3 young children who would be devasted if they lost their father.

I lost my older brother suddenly 3 years ago and it was devastating. To this day, I still cannot look at a picture of him. It completely changed my outlook on life. Time heals all wounds. Be strong my brother.
 

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Got my glock, got the oxy, got the crown, got the pills. Gonna get this shyt done. Been praying all day. Shot still fukked.


Please PLEASE don't harm yourself. I know you are in terrible pain right now but as someone who has had a best friend commit that...it will absolutely devastate everyone around you and mess them up for the rest of their lives. Please call someone for help breh. We love you and care about you and you need someone to help you through it.

Suicide prevention hotline number is 1-800-273-8255. Please call right now no matter how fukked up you feel. They can help you through this. Wishing you the best for real and praying for you. Please hang in there and get help ASAP.
 

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Got my glock, got the oxy, got the crown, got the pills. Gonna get this shyt done. Been praying all day. Shot still fukked.
Real shyt

The way most people handle depression with others is fukking horrible


U looking for pity

But u have kids

Kids still living and depending on you to guide them

If u take ya life u a fukking coward and a shytty parent and your kids will grow without that strong male influence and also be forever self conscious because they wasn't enough for you to live for

Cut the bullshyt out

Leave the pills and alcohol alone

Seek help

Don't be a bytch ass coward


If u wanted to be selfish u should not have had kids at all


I don't see a problem with suicide.

shyt is a choice and if the individual feels that is the choice they want to make so be it


But once u bring kids into this world
Your life is not your own
It is theirs
If u take your life u are stealing from them
 
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I appreciate the love. The day after i posted this the wife asked for a divorce. That bytch. I been nothing but a good and faithful husband to this woman. She got all sorts of trauma feom her fukked up childhood. Given her love, patience, kindness, all that. But she aint happy. I dedicated my life to my family and now its gone. Aint got shyt else to live for. Shot is fukked up. Apent my life trying to do right. Put my family first. Pit my wife first. Took in her younger brothers and raised them like my own. Took in her addict mother and let her live with us, ahowed nothing but respect to her. Lived in her hometown. Embraced her family like my own. Gave her space gave her love. Did everything i could for her. Now she wants to leave me. My life is fukking over. I grew up an only child of divorce. All i ever wanted was a family of my own. My worst fear was losing a child. Every fathers day i said all i wanted was a healthy family. That was taken from me. Growing up my biggest fear was growing old alone. I grew up alone. Had no siblings, no first or second cousins. I said when i got married it was for life. Real talk Id deal with damn near anything short of cheating because i aint wanna be alone. She knew that. She said it was forever. She would say ‘me and you till the world blows up’. She would say divorce wasn’t and option. But now she wants to leave. Im fukked up. Cant do this shyt no more. And I miss my boy. All i have left of him is this fukking video. Look at my boy yall. He was perfect

Cameron Reeves Video

Absolutely adorable child. I'm so very sorry for your loss. He wouldn't want you to give up though, would he? Hang in there breh and talk to a counselor right now...1-800-273-8255. They can help you through this.
 

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Suicide is never the answer. You hurt because your son passed. Why would you give that same pain to your other kids by you leaving them? Being a man ain't easy. And by you staying strong no matter the obstacles and hard times is what makes a man, a man.

Seek help. Talk to a professional about how you're feeling. Don't give up on your kids. It's always darkest before the sunrise
 

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Suicide is never the answer. You hurt because your son passed. Why would you give that same pain to your other kids by you leaving them? Being a man ain't easy. And by you staying strong no matter the obstacles and hard times is what makes a man, a man.

Seek help. Talk to a professional about how you're feeling. Don't give up on your kids. It's always darkest before the sunrise
 

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Please brother, you're not alone. You have people that deeply care and love you, you still have children that are depending on you. There are people on this very site that care for you, were a family on this site and no matter what you go through we'll be here to offer any help.

Please bro, please
 

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Still praying mightily and continuously for you, op. Even when - like Job was in the Bible - even when we are in our darkest and most painful hour, God is still with us. We are never alone. He is there to help you and love you. He is able to keep you from falling and is able to bring forth positive from negative and even joy from the deepest pain. Let your son's bright light continue to shine through you. Don't let it flame out. He wouldn't want that. Keep pressing through. Keep holding on. Keep leaning on God. Keep praying even when you don't feel like it. Keep reaching out. There is hope and light on the other side of your darkness. You are loved.

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