loner thread

[Lord Bison]

Trust me. Like, for real.

You'll look back at the self you left behind like, "Good riddance, parasite".

My brother, my sister and I all did the ego death trip (7 grams of mushrooms). All of us were severely depressed.

That was a year ago.

I'm back in school. I've applied myself at work and am now earning 25% more than I was before the trip. My brother got promoted, close to 100k a year. My sister is back in school. We're all taking life like its ours because it is!

The longer people wallow in self pity and depression is less time you have to get your shyt together. I'm 35 yrs old. I had been in the same mental state since I was 11 years old to 33 years old....


I wasted 22 years on the dumb shyt that's in this thread and all I had to do was take a couple of shrooms. I hate it that I didnt stumble upon this way earlier, but I'm grateful for the knowledge that someone gave me to allow myself the shedding of debilitating depression.

I know the players in this thread think I'm antagonizing them or being dismissive.

If you paid attention, I gave you the answer to your problems.

Research it. Read peer reviewed scientific journals on the shyt. I guarantee in 25 years.. depression will be a thing of the past.

I agree with you wholeheartedly breh. I do shrooms semi-regularly. Last time I did it was in September to cope with my Grandmother being on her deathbed.

She passed away last month and I haven't built up the courage to do any shrooms during my grieving period. As you know, shrooms will bring whatever it is you're feeling to the forefront.

But yeah you spitting facts bro. Congratulations on you and your siblings making life improvements. Hold some rep.

Doing shrooms is like clearing the cache and cookies on your spirit for real.

 

[hickorysmoked1]

Trust me. Like, for real.

You'll look back at the self you left behind like, "Good riddance, parasite".

My brother, my sister and I all did the ego death trip (7 grams of mushrooms). All of us were severely depressed.

That was a year ago.

I'm back in school. I've applied myself at work and am now earning 25% more than I was before the trip. My brother got promoted, close to 100k a year. My sister is back in school. We're all taking life like its ours because it is!

The longer people wallow in self pity and depression is less time you have to get your shyt together. I'm 35 yrs old. I had been in the same mental state since I was 11 years old to 33 years old....


I wasted 22 years on the dumb shyt that's in this thread and all I had to do was take a couple of shrooms. I hate it that I didnt stumble upon this way earlier, but I'm grateful for the knowledge that someone gave me to allow myself the shedding of debilitating depression.

I know the players in this thread think I'm antagonizing them or being dismissive.

If you paid attention, I gave you the answer to your problems.

Research it. Read peer reviewed scientific journals on the shyt. I guarantee in 25 years.. depression will be a thing of the past.

Thats great to hear breh

Been wanting to do this for a long time but scared to do it alone because of what might come up. I did San Pedro by myself a couple of years ago and thought I was going crazy so ended up in the hospital.

If you don't mind answering,
what was the setting like?
Was it just you and your bro and sis?
how long did the trip last?
Do you mind detailing what you went through?

 

[Jay Kast]

Thats great to hear breh

Been wanting to do this for a long time but scared to do it alone because of what might come up. I did San Pedro by myself a couple of years ago and thought I was going crazy so ended up in the hospital.

If you don't mind answering,
what was the setting like?
Was it just you and your bro and sis?
how long did the trip last?
Do you mind detailing what you went through?

Spoiler: Long winded answer lol

It's definitely something you'd want to do under the supervision of someone who is competent and understanding.

My brother and I did it together first, I took 7 grams grinded and put into orange juice to help get it down.

We were at our family house with our parents. A comfortable, familiar setting is best to minimize distractions or fixations that could happen in new environments

My bro and I did it first, then my oldest sister did it by herself, then my other sister solo, then my niece and nephew together. Everyone experienced significant benefits as to renewed focus and vigor due to all the baggage accumulated through life being eliminated except my niece and nephew, the feedback loop that occurred between them took away from it's usually significant results - too distracted. It's just like bro above said, it's like clearing your cache.

It lasted about 10 to 12 hours with the intense portion taking up about 4 hours of that time. It's literally the scariest thing I've ever done and the most enlightening. The framework your self has created as your perception of reality is utterly destroyed and your concept of self along with it.

Initially, I felt the high of the psychedelic - seemingly enhanced sensitivity to all sensory input. Then it seemed as if my brain began to roll, tumble and stumble through the confusion of trying to maintain a sense of reality. My attempts were worthy but failed anyway, the journey began into everything and nothingness at the same time. Detailed playback of specific memories thought to be completely lost, conceptual dreams of abstract but meaningful scenes, pangs of severe emotional trauma and thoughts that brought euphoric levels of joy.

At some point my understanding and recognition of societal constructs and my immediate circle of influence began to disintegrate wholly, and the only thing I can remember being ABLE to remember is my family. It seemed to point me in the direction of what I need to focus on and that is my connection with those that I love and that love me, nothing else matters but the experiences we share and impart onto others around us.

Soon enough, the building blocks of typical life as we know it begin to reassemble, yet cleaner, more accurately and without preconceived notions. The lens in which I looked through at life had been thoroughly wiped squeaky clean and you just dont know how much you're missing if you never see it.

Hope that helps.

 

[hickorysmoked1]

Spoiler: Long winded answer lol

It's definitely something you'd want to do under the supervision of someone who is competent and understanding.

My brother and I did it together first, I took 7 grams grinded and put into orange juice to help get it down.

We were at our family house with our parents. A comfortable, familiar setting is best to minimize distractions or fixations that could happen in new environments

My bro and I did it first, then my oldest sister did it by herself, then my other sister solo, then my niece and nephew together. Everyone experienced significant benefits as to renewed focus and vigor due to all the baggage accumulated through life being eliminated except my niece and nephew, the feedback loop that occurred between them took away from it's usually significant results - too distracted. It's just like bro above said, it's like clearing your cache.

It lasted about 10 to 12 hours with the intense portion taking up about 4 hours of that time. It's literally the scariest thing I've ever done and the most enlightening. The framework your self has created as your perception of reality is utterly destroyed and your concept of self along with it.

Initially, I felt the high of the psychedelic - seemingly enhanced sensitivity to all sensory input. Then it seemed as if my brain began to roll, tumble and stumble through the confusion of trying to maintain a sense of reality. My attempts were worthy but failed anyway, the journey began into everything and nothingness at the same time. Detailed playback of specific memories thought to be completely lost, conceptual dreams of abstract but meaningful scenes, pangs of severe emotional trauma and thoughts that brought euphoric levels of joy.

At some point my understanding and recognition of societal constructs and my immediate circle of influence began to disintegrate wholly, and the only thing I can remember being ABLE to remember is my family. It seemed to point me in the direction of what I need to focus on and that is my connection with those that I love and that love me, nothing else matters but the experiences we share and impart onto others around us.

Soon enough, the building blocks of typical life as we know it begin to reassemble, yet cleaner, more accurately and without preconceived notions. The lens in which I looked through at life had been thoroughly wiped squeaky clean and you just dont know how much you're missing if you never see it.

Hope that helps.

Thank you for your detailed answer breh, It is extremely helpful.
It kind of sounds like Ayahuasca
At anytime did you feel like you were going crazy?
What did you mean by feedback loop with your niece and nephew? Was their trip beneficial at all?
I think I may have someone to do it with, but i've been diagnosed with bipolar type 2 in the past and kind of afraid it will break me permanently. I dont take any medication for it, but function ok in day to day life. Just very paranoid and get depressed very very easily. Punked out of taking Ayahuasca 3 times because im afraid of going crazy lol.

 

[Jay Kast]

Thank you for your detailed answer breh, It is extremely helpful.
It kind of sounds like Ayahuasca
At anytime did you feel like you were going crazy?
What did you mean by feedback loop with your niece and nephew? Was their trip beneficial at all?
I think I may have someone to do it with, but i've been diagnosed with bipolar type 2 in the past and kind of afraid it will break me permanently. I dont take any medication for it, but function ok in day to day life. Just very paranoid and get depressed very very easily. Punked out of taking Ayahuasca 3 times because im afraid of going crazy lol.

I punked out for a few months, its understandable. There was a moment where I felt my grip on sanity was waning but I trusted the process and I realized I was worried for nothing by the end of it.

Niece and nephew started talking to each other and couldn't stop, repeating the same phrases and seemingly not progressing with their personal journey because they did not want to separate. It was interesting because I witnessed the subconscious fear inherent in releasing ones self and succumbing to the idea of no control within my nephew because he obviously wanted to maintain a connection with my niece to remain grounded. Even while high af, your subconscious is fearful of releasing control.

I'm actually hella anti drug other than marijuana. Give it a shot.

 

[13473]

u probably replay all the bad experiences you've had with others and that makes u avoid seeking future experiences that could be positive. your brain becomes unbalanced due to all this negativity.

u think people will notice every little awkward thing u do and judge u for it. people are not paying attention to u like that. think of how u live your day passing hundreds of people and barely noticing any of them. they don't notice u either. even if u are shaking in public they probably just think u are sick or something. they aren't thinking "oh that weirdo"


i'm no social butterfly but nowhere near as awkward as i used to be. u gotta force yourself & seek out environments and people you'll be comfortable with. i have no idea how you'd know you'd be comfortable with a woman u randomly cold approach. it's possible for u to have a love & social life but u gotta be more strategic until u are less awkward. if the people u find are also socially awkward make sure they're trying to overcome it as well.

 

[hickorysmoked1]

I punked out for a few months, its understandable. There was a moment where I felt my grip on sanity was waning but I trusted the process and I realized I was worried for nothing by the end of it.

Niece and nephew started talking to each other and couldn't stop, repeating the same phrases and seemingly not progressing with their personal journey because they did not want to separate. It was interesting because I witnessed the subconscious fear inherent in releasing ones self and succumbing to the idea of no control within my nephew because he obviously wanted to maintain a connection with my niece to remain grounded. Even while high af, your subconscious is fearful of releasing control.

I'm actually hella anti drug other than marijuana. Give it a shot.

Thanks a lot for sharing your experience bro. If I do get to do it, I'll remember to trust it and not fear reality slipping away. I feel like I will go crazy (like trash the place) before I lose control while tripping which is a scary thought itself, but I want to try it anyway. I'll hopefully get the opportunity to try it. Thanks again.

 

[Canada Goose]

Loner checking in *raises my left wing and waves*


No friends
No female companions



OP did better than most people in the loner group, you said started shaking before you was about to smash, I had an anxiety attack and almost passed out when this woman sat on the bench next to me and tried to strike up an convo This was before I had access to mental health care and medications, etc. At least you got multiple women that wanted to have romantic interactions with you


I always second guess myself in conversations with people of both genders, which is why to try to avoid social interaction of any kind. Also why I love self checkout at Target so much no social interaction


I'm not rude and try to be as friendly as possible when having conversations, I'm just socially awkward. I had this female cashier with a bubbly personality strike up a convo with me at the register about my T shirt,



I know she was just being friendly cause of her job but I still overthought the interaction as soon as l left, she didn't do nothing wrong, I just caught me off guard to see someone so friendly towards me.


Most people wouldn't think nothing of that interaction, not me though

 

[JQ Legend]

That’s normal. Rejection sucks. Men are supposed to brush it off but sometimes it’s not that easy. You see how women deal w/ it. Some girls still resent me for curving them in HS or middle school lol

This some real shyt. If rejection is so easy to get over, why do women get so offended by it and/or avoid even risking a chance of it happening?

You don't need friends to travel, breh.

Some of the best trips I've ever taken have been solo.

This real shyt too. I took most my first trips alone and had a good time. I figured if I had fun on solo trips, trips with my homies/cousins would be even better. I was wrong

I just can't seem to do that but I will try next year for sure. will maybe go to America or France or some shyt

Where u at now, UK?

 

[JQ Legend]

Trust me. Like, for real.

You'll look back at the self you left behind like, "Good riddance, parasite".

My brother, my sister and I all did the ego death trip (7 grams of mushrooms). All of us were severely depressed.

That was a year ago.

I'm back in school. I've applied myself at work and am now earning 25% more than I was before the trip. My brother got promoted, close to 100k a year. My sister is back in school. We're all taking life like its ours because it is!

The longer people wallow in self pity and depression is less time you have to get your shyt together. I'm 35 yrs old. I had been in the same mental state since I was 11 years old to 33 years old....


I wasted 22 years on the dumb shyt that's in this thread and all I had to do was take a couple of shrooms. I hate it that I didnt stumble upon this way earlier, but I'm grateful for the knowledge that someone gave me to allow myself the shedding of debilitating depression.

I know the players in this thread think I'm antagonizing them or being dismissive.

If you paid attention, I gave you the answer to your problems.

Research it. Read peer reviewed scientific journals on the shyt. I guarantee in 25 years.. depression will be a thing of the past.

shyt is wild difficult to get shrooms tho

Sites that sell them don’t ship to the US and it’s very few people selling them, I personally haven’t met a single one

 

[AAKing23]

The gangs all here

 

[Jay Kast]

shyt is wild difficult to get shrooms tho

Sites that sell them don’t shyt to the US and it’s very few people selling them, I personally haven’t met a single one

Link up with some white folk who go to concerts alot. They always know where the shroom plug is.

Its dumb easy to grow yourself as well.

 

[JQ Legend]

Link up with some white folk who go to concerts alot. They always know where the shroom plug is.

Its dumb easy to grow yourself as well.

Where you get the materials to grow them yourself?

And way easier said than done randomly meeting white people who happen to know where I can get shrooms

 

[CouldntBeMeTho]

First few posts was enough for me

 

[Rozay Oro]

This thread killed any hope I had. I got some friends but I still feel so out of place. I’m never having a woman that loves me. At least I can re install tinder every few months and meet new sluts.