Lowest point in your life thread

[Tookalossfellbackcameback]

3 years ago. Got fired from my job as a line cook (I couldn't stand the kitchen manager), my daughter's mother put a PPO on me because of an ARGUMENT, and I was trying to make a can of Quaker Oats oatmeal stretch for 6-7 days at a time because I was assed out broke. I'm generally relentlessly positive but I got so down I just shut everybody out of my life. My dad got diagnosed with dementia, moms was struggling with her health.


One morning I got so down I sat in my car at a Best Buy parking lot and cried. Cried like a baby.



That was my lowest point.

 

[WaveMolecules]

Day my mother died.

shyt was tough

 

[GreenGhxst]

Dealing with poverty sucked but I got used to that growing up

When my Dad died tho, shyt was different

 

[ReturnOfJudah]

nikka what u done did? probably got a newport in ya mouf right now

Was just reflecting back on how i was a fukking retard in the 2000s. Had no sense of direction and living life like Peter Pan. Was all about partying, bytches, sports, and weed/x. Moved to another state and had time to reflect. The Most High be tripping me out how he could take pieces of shyts like me and give us a 2nd chance at life. Its always the nikkas you least expect to turn it around.

 

[BeBorn]

Day my mother died.

shyt was tough

Same here breh.never been the same since.

 

[WaveMolecules]

Same here breh.never been the same since.

Yep. Never be the same again.

 

[JackRoss]

April 2008. Caught the DUI and lost my girl. Lost this other chick. My confidence was shot and I really started to doubt myself. That was 21 year old me

I wasn't sure because I was halfway killing shyt them L's smh. It's made me a better person. I'm a little bit wise but great. Think LeBron to Miami to now. Unfukkable with now. The respect and the sir shyt. If they only knew the journey.

Sometimes you just gotta eat that shyt and its hard

 

[Doctor Wily]

2012-2014 : Rotating between 4 jobs while working 3 jobs at the same time & that combined total wasn't even clipping 50k

Jan-June /Sept-Dec School bus driver $21.50 an hour part time max 20hrs a week. No OT no benefits.

Jan-Dec Public Works seasonal 40 hrs a week max NO OT No Benefits $13.30 an hour

May-Oct Ice Cream truck driver Weekends and Holidays $10 an hour (on the books)

but would bring home between $500-$600 a day tax free off the books.

Year round - Commerical cleaning service - random days no set schedule , usually in the summer 3 nights a week $9 dollars an hour off the books.


None of the jobs had any health benifits , 2015 is when everything turned around and I've had a one steady career since.

 

[Payroll]

 

[JackRoss]

2007. I blacked out. Two hands around her neck. I couldn't have killed her. You slapped me twice though. I really liked her. bytch had like 6 brothers and I'm an only child

 

[King Khufu]

I'm going through it. Had enough, but not sure how to escape it out yet?

 

[Vandelay]

2016

Living in a new city, owed the government $12k, credit was in the 500's, working 12+ hours a day, ex had me locked up...more shyt I can't talk about.

It was fukked up and I'm still digging out of it.

 

[King Khufu]

These words are hooked into my ears "Only the good die young, only seems evil lives forever", So cause of it I only think of when will time strike it's final hours?

There are no easy solutions even though the answer is simple innit self.

 

[Sassy]

2016 was my worst year yet. I lost my mother (rip), got into a toxic relationship, and I was working temp jobs (warehouse). Gained weight (depression)
And was conflicted with my religion at the time. I was very close to just losing it honestly.

Now? I'm doing better. Nothing can replace my mother of course, and I will always miss her. But I'm out of that toxic relationship, I have made new friends over this year, I have a great career, I'm no longer religious (more spiritual than anything). And I'm starting to get my health together.

So, I still deal with depression and suicidal thoughts, but they aren't as reoccurring as they were before, so I'm getting better - I still have ways to go though.

 

[King Khufu]

Today is one of those days. . .

Someone keeps messing with me, they're going to regret it after I find out.