I had a ex commit suicide once. The crazy part is she called me out of the blue, after not talking for a month. She asked me to pick her up, we hung out and talked about what happened. After a while she got in a argument with the guy she was seeing on the phone. I took her home, and she ended up killing herself that night. She didn't give me any hint at all that's what she was about to do. I feel pretty positive she had it planned out. I'll never forget what she said that night either. Basically she said if I hadn't cheated on her none of this would've happened.
10 years later that shyt still fux with me
I had another girl get murdered by catching a stray bullet in the head at a party.
I feel your pain breh, this type of stuff will stick with you forever. Just use it as motivation to be a better man.