You know how you say some shyt then look back on years later thinkin “what made me say this?”
that’s how I felt when I got a notification on this thread. Oh well, I stand on it
I hope you doing better bro, I'm a lil fukked up mentally right now. I'm trying to get back in the workforce and all my applications is being rejected. Although I know I have the skills and experience. I'm getting dubbed hard. I feel like giving up, going to a cave in afghanistan like Osama and hide out the rest of my days.
I was watching the Mike Tyson podcast and he said something super interesting that hit home, "your mind is not your friend" My mind has me ready to commit that, but I know deep down that aint the answer, but sometimes you go through so much you don't even give a fukk no more. I'm happy I saw that from Mike Tyson.
What I did now is go back to the drawing board and addressing the problem. I hired someone to work on my Resume professionally and I'm investing in my success. I hope that this will help me when I start applying again. My work ethic is relentless, I literally would fill out like 20-30 apps a day. But the key is to work smarter not harder, and build myself up, because nobody will. I have to remember who the fukk I am, and that I'm a bad mothafukka too.
I hope everybody doing good though, I feel like I'm stripped naked and I got nothing. I've abandoned my spirituality, god, and positive nature. I've let other people's thoughts of me become my own. I let those stupid mothafukkaz win. People who aint shyt, trynna act like I aint shyt. What the fukk is wrong with me to let that happen. fukk them mothafukkaz man, I got this and I got me. Ima come out on top like I've done before and how I know how to do.
