Honestly.
Here's what you need to do.
And this will be some therapy for you.
Call your therapist and tell dude what's what.
Don't be overly hostile or an a$$hole, just tell him that you appreciate his services, but anyone who freely uses the word "******" isn't someone who has your best interest at heart and you won't be referring him,
ever.
Tell him to stop calling you. Don't ask him, tell him. Stand up for your goddamn self.
This is simple manhood.
Now... I know. You're sitting there thinking, "I can't do that." I'm telling you,
yes you fukking can.
Not even like on some "as a black man" faux-militant bullshyt, but just straight up nobody should feel like they can disrespect you to your face. It's foul and honestly it makes you weaker (look how you fled to the safety of the internet, for example).
I'm not telling you that you're a weakling, but if you want to come out of this situation feeling strong, then you need to handle it like a man.
Again, this is therapy. Once it's done, I can absolutely guarantee that you'll feel 10^6 times better. Better than you've
ever felt after any session.
Yes, you can fukking do this, breh. You need to fukking do this. It's 2 and a half minutes that will change your life, I
promise you. Because honestly, when's the last time you stood up for yourself?
Do this for yourself and your future. It'll honestly probably change your life because you'll learn what it feels like to exert your will (which it sounds like is the reason you're in therapy in the first place).
Do it tomorrow, then post back.
Edit: Oh, and stop jacking off so much. That's your whole problem right there.