Call it what you want, but growing up around spots that regularly get shot up or have some fukkshyt go down taught me to NEVER get completely fukked up outside of my own home, I have to be cognizant enough to get myself out of a situation at all times
If I feel my focus slipping even a little bit I'm headed back to the crib cuz anything could happen and I'm just setting myself up for a major L, I don't trust anyone else to take care of me especially if they're fukked up too