So, Im no player by any means, but like once or twice a year I get down and dirty 
. Seems fine right, well, I'm starting to notice something about myself every time i commit to intercourse. Seems like every' time I do it with someone, its just really, really intense and its so much so it freaks me out to think about it after I've done it. You know how people get paranoid and sketchy when they get high? Thats me afterwards, yet after a month or 2, im back to that same carnal instinct of 
. Every time i talk to my boys about a girl they always bring up what sexual ratification im getting out of her, my relatives consistently talk about the girls i'd meet at college, the media always puts attractive women on a pedestal, social media practically worships sexuality and the female body. So Ill tell myself "yo dont have sex for another 5 months, get your head right, its not that serious, it feels good but you could feel better working towards your goals and dreams"
My problem is, im not sure how I feel about having sex like that, I am talking to some one now, I'd like to have sex with them, but only them really and I dont want to think about it often. But im a socially active artist in college so Im only going to meet more women that will push my buttons. If i cant really resist them....am I sort of conditioned into just having sex whenever I can in this society? Or am I just over thinking?
. Seems fine right, well, I'm starting to notice something about myself every time i commit to intercourse. Seems like every' time I do it with someone, its just really, really intense and its so much so it freaks me out to think about it after I've done it. You know how people get paranoid and sketchy when they get high? Thats me afterwards, yet after a month or 2, im back to that same carnal instinct of . Every time i talk to my boys about a girl they always bring up what sexual ratification im getting out of her, my relatives consistently talk about the girls i'd meet at college, the media always puts attractive women on a pedestal, social media practically worships sexuality and the female body. So Ill tell myself "yo dont have sex for another 5 months, get your head right, its not that serious, it feels good but you could feel better working towards your goals and dreams"My problem is, im not sure how I feel about having sex like that, I am talking to some one now, I'd like to have sex with them, but only them really and I dont want to think about it often. But im a socially active artist in college so Im only going to meet more women that will push my buttons. If i cant really resist them....am I sort of conditioned into just having sex whenever I can in this society? Or am I just over thinking?
