This post made me sad. Don't ever say that shyt about yourself or be ashamed of who you are because the world is ignorant. It took me years to accept, come to terms and realize that there is nothing wrong with being gay. Even to this day, the effects of growing up in the closet and being there for so long lingers and shyt hurts to see shyt like this or when some people act as if shyt is so fukking easy when they too are affected. There's so many traps out there for gay men and lbt to kill themselves off with designated as pride or empowerment.
And real talk, I hate that word. I won't repeat it but that's one word that would hurt me very deeply when I was a closet case and would say it while reciting whatever rap song if it was said in it. The hate and negativity in that word is too strong.