I need a hug right now.
Eeriely, I feel like I'm back in 2007 all over again. A lot of anger and frustration inside at myself misdirected towards other people, trying to be okay when I am not. I feel ashamed, embarrassed and alone surrounded by people who don't even have the slightest idea.
Today, the strangest thing happened to me on the road. I got my tire replaced yesterday and some weird noise started this morning as I was driving my car to work. This continued on until this after I got out the gym.
Now what happened was creepy. I don't know if I blanked out, nodded off or some weird health thing but my vision just twisted to the left and I felt as if something happened. Like my consciousness was altered or some strange phenomenon. I felt like I was going to crash my car at that split second because my heart jumped and then the noise disappeared like that. I don't know if the noise was me or some weird thing but the noise went away.
I swear as of late a lot of scary things are happening to me. I dreamed I was dying in my sleep on some real shyt where I felt like I was dying for real. I was struggling to stay alive and now this. I think my body is shutting down on me possibly from all that sleep deprivation.