I want to cry man. It feels good to make more money than I need again. I am going to save a thousand dollars a month. My goal is to save ten thousand dollars. If I save one check a month I'll be okay. When I made more money than I needed the first time I was young, fresh out the hood and financially irresponsible. I have nothing to show for it.
This time, I might buy a house in Vegas or New Orleans. The mortgage would be cheaper than the rent I pay, my friend would be my partner and the big homie is willing to loan us some cash.
I can make moves again! I am going to do everything in my power to control myself because being in this position means a lot to me, not everyone gets the chance to be here once in a life time. This is my second time before the age of 30 that I have made this kind of money doing something I love.
I set lofty goals and when I achieve them I am fukking shocked. I talk a lot of shyt I don't believe. I speak it into existence, hahaha, I am not as arrogant as I appear. It's all an act. nikkas think I'm stupid, naw I'm a fukking genius because I know to do something huge I have to use all my tools to make it happen.
When I talk big shyt I have to back it up. I'm highly competitive and when I tell people my goals they tell me I can't do it and the challenge motivates me to make it happen. Stopping me as easy as agreeing with me, as soon I sense doubt I go into my anything is possible zone. That's why I balance my life between the light and the dark. Too many nice things make me soft and too many bad things destroy my soul.
Somebody said I was skinny fat on the internet months ago. Some stranger who's never seen me said that to me. That comment made me spend a thousand dollars on a gym so I could lift weights in my house. I've been on those weights for months and the results are visible. I think about that comment almost every day and I work out every day.
I'm going to keep living like a broke boy to optimize this opportunity. I'll do two things to reward my years of hard work. I'm buying my dream chef tools and uniforms. I'll also upgrade my skin treatment. Both will make me money so they're not bad investments.
Having muscle on my body is crazy. I eat a lot less, but when I do eat I crave protein. I stick with plant based proteins and high-fat meat like pork. I don't have to eat much and I get what I need. I feel sturdier and I don't mind having a little belly because nothing on my body jiggles since I added muscle. My whole life my body needed a little muscle. I feel a lot better and I like the way i look for once. Girls that hate me or have rejected me for over a year are flirting with me now. My lower body was always good looking. Now my upper body is catching up.
I finally have six abs. I've always had four but I was too skinny to build muscle. I've been working on my abs and I have six now. I just gotta keep building muscle there until I have more definition.