




I'm thoroughly defeated, if I didn't have nuclear fam, I woulda done been offed myself tbh, but I don't have to put them through that.
Seems like the walls steady caving in tho
it gets better, I promise. Just hold on, one day at a time.All faxLong story short: I woke up feeling thankful to be in the position I'm in, I feel loved and capable of giving long and that's a damn good feeling. The best I've felt in this life. I don't feel this way because of an accomplishment. I feel this way because I studied the soul, got in tune with my higher self and inner child, and being brave. God is motherfukking outstanding and I mean that shyt. I've been to hell and I walked through it towards God. I didn't believe in God or myself while living hell and God still brought me home. That's why my God is a motherfukking G. When I couldn't see hope God let me see through his eyes. When I I had no love to give and received none God opened my heart and loved me.
Again, I did not believe in God and God still believed in me. I didn't get lucky, I'm not a genius, or anything special. Yeah I work hard, but it takes a lot more than hard work and good luck to not die out here. I tried everything. Reading the bible, learning about spirituality, and I didn't even have a family when I started my life and now a nikka is on his way to starting my own. That's fukking beautiful.
It pisses me off when people who had a good start in life complain about their lives. They don't know how lucky they are to have parents that love them, a family that supports them, and a network to take advantage of. Having people to love is special too.
I have to love myself and I have to love ideas.



Thank you and forgive my grammar. I was feeling inspired and forgot to proof read my post. I fell asleep and woke up feeling love and gratitude. I fell asleep watching YT videos about metaphysics and melanin. I woke up because I realized something while dreaming. I realized God is real because even those without love feel love. Who gives them that love? Gotta be God. People feel hope even when there's no hope. Even non believers get to benefit from God's love(or god is love)and that's a beautiful idea.All fax



(mind you i know she has one because she's always on it instead of paying attention in class
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(knowing damn well i heard everything
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It's not an injury per se.... I haven't been back in the gym long but I've been faithful to 3 times a week, going on 4, and I already snapped my shoulder up again, but that's minor. This bicep tightness during t-bar and pull downs is fukking me up.