About to drive to north cali in some hours but for now, rocking myself to sleep to this song in the hotel room by myself. Peace of mind and quiet where I get to be a fool alone without being judged or seen by ANYBODY but me. Thats the much needed space I need from everybody.
im always around people where I feel like i never get my space to truly breathe and fully be me and free without no fukks given. Even better a place im unknown in. Thats been one of my lifelong dreams to experience freedom where im not fukking controlled and can just RELAX. its like most of the time, someone around me is trying to raise my damn anxiety up so Im always up. Even now, I had to chill with the weed because I was getting paranoid being alone thinking I might get ran down on by someone randomly being a black man walking down the street in a highly segregated city on the west coast. My mind was telling me that not only from the paranoid ive always had but what ive been told by other people so their words and fears also became my words and fears. But now I feel like that's going away to the point where im feeling that liberation vibe where its like Im about to prove their asses wrong especially with me driving to SF and flying their back home by myself. This is my
at them.
I cant stand people who are fukking scared or fearful where theyre ready to point out what could go wrong. Its like they act like the moment you step off the plane or get on the road or even step outside the house, youre going to get hurt or injure yourself. Thats how you manifest bad shyt because you keep thinking of it and making it happen. Stop doing that shyt.
