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My Son is 11 weeks old today 
, it’s been the best 11 weeks of my life.
, it’s been the best 11 weeks of my life.
I've had a lot of excitement over the last few weeks and I must say that I really enjoyed it. I've been pondering and I have come to a conclusion.
I put out SO much emotional energy for people. I have done a TON of self work and it has made me emotionally bold (bold in general really.)
I have no problem telling people how I feel about them. I openly tell people I miss them, I care about them, I think about them. It's friends, family and even coworkers.
I have ZERO problem telling people I value them and their company. I am always considerate. I respect people boundaries and I am ULTRA understanding.
People love it but then also see me as "hard to get" (in terms of my attention). I move around because there is no reason to stay put. I'll pop up and make you feel like a million bucks and then keep it moving. Maybe to a certain extent I'm "hard to get" but it's really that EVERYONE runs the same fukking playback.
Everyone is so emotionally guarded. They eat up my affection but rather die than give it back. But then it comes out in other ways that usually entertain me but aren't necessarily the healthiest way to express themselves. People will stalk your social media before they say a thing about wanting to see you. My sister does that weirdo shyt the most.
Why stay put? So I can wrestle the smallest bit of emotion out of you? So you can save face but then get mad when I can't read your mind?
I do things like stay late just to catch up with my staff who I don’t necessarily see all the time. I remember names and small details about people. I actually LISTEN to people. I defend them when they aren't around. I follow up. Tell people how proud I am of them. All types of nice little things I do on an everyday basis.
It doesn't even phase me when I doesn't get my openness returned. At this point, I don't even look for it. I like to make people feel seen, heard, wanted and appreciated. I ain't the ugliest woman either so it also hits different if the person giving the praise is attractive. So it's good. It brings me joy.
But not a soul ever thinks to make me feel that why.
I also understand that I am very intimidating to most people. I get it. I won't hold that against people. I'm a lot.
HOWEVER, I have decided I want that same bold honesty in terms of affection, adoration, expression for my company presence etc returned. I give it because I want it. That shyt feels amazing to receive which is why people love when I do it.
I know it is a bit scary but you know what? I do thst shyt EVERY day. I put myself out there and I get rejected too. It's pretty rare but it happens and I take it on the chin and I don't hold it against them. They always circle back anyway because the rejection is usually to save face but that's another conversation.
Not to say I will change. I won't. I'll keep doing what I enjoy doing but I feel like I know what I want to see.
Bold HONEST positive affection is my new green flag. I respect the courage.
It's my new barrier to entry. The only way anyone is getting more of me is if you say it out loud. Period. I want to hear it or see it through actions.
I already make the first move with everyone around me. I always put myself out there first. I need some reciprocal energy.
It's what I have been missing.
At this point, a simple "I wanted to talk to you." that wasn't followed by a complaint or expectation for me to solve a problem would send me over the moon. Frfr
I put out SO much emotional energy for people. I have done a TON of self work and it has made me emotionally bold (bold in general really.)
I have no problem telling people how I feel about them. I openly tell people I miss them, I care about them, I think about them. It's friends, family and even coworkers.
I have ZERO problem telling people I value them and their company. I am always considerate. I respect people boundaries and I am ULTRA understanding.
People love it but then also see me as "hard to get" (in terms of my attention). I move around because there is no reason to stay put. I'll pop up and make you feel like a million bucks and then keep it moving. Maybe to a certain extent I'm "hard to get" but it's really that EVERYONE runs the same fukking playback.
Everyone is so emotionally guarded. They eat up my affection but rather die than give it back. But then it comes out in other ways that usually entertain me but aren't necessarily the healthiest way to express themselves. People will stalk your social media before they say a thing about wanting to see you. My sister does that weirdo shyt the most.
Why stay put? So I can wrestle the smallest bit of emotion out of you? So you can save face but then get mad when I can't read your mind?
I do things like stay late just to catch up with my staff who I don’t necessarily see all the time. I remember names and small details about people. I actually LISTEN to people. I defend them when they aren't around. I follow up. Tell people how proud I am of them. All types of nice little things I do on an everyday basis.
It doesn't even phase me when I doesn't get my openness returned. At this point, I don't even look for it. I like to make people feel seen, heard, wanted and appreciated. I ain't the ugliest woman either so it also hits different if the person giving the praise is attractive. So it's good. It brings me joy.
But not a soul ever thinks to make me feel that why.
I also understand that I am very intimidating to most people. I get it. I won't hold that against people. I'm a lot.
HOWEVER, I have decided I want that same bold honesty in terms of affection, adoration, expression for my company presence etc returned. I give it because I want it. That shyt feels amazing to receive which is why people love when I do it.
I know it is a bit scary but you know what? I do thst shyt EVERY day. I put myself out there and I get rejected too. It's pretty rare but it happens and I take it on the chin and I don't hold it against them. They always circle back anyway because the rejection is usually to save face but that's another conversation.
Not to say I will change. I won't. I'll keep doing what I enjoy doing but I feel like I know what I want to see.
Bold HONEST positive affection is my new green flag. I respect the courage.
It's my new barrier to entry. The only way anyone is getting more of me is if you say it out loud. Period. I want to hear it or see it through actions.
I already make the first move with everyone around me. I always put myself out there first. I need some reciprocal energy.
It's what I have been missing.
At this point, a simple "I wanted to talk to you." that wasn't followed by a complaint or expectation for me to solve a problem would send me over the moon. Frfr
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AquaCityBoy
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Why you need to wash your bootyhole in the shower
Her own demonstration shows she walking around with some feces around her anus.
She used water and soap but didn't agitate and scrub clean.
Or dry with a towel.
