Ya know after what happened to me tonite I totally understand suicide now. I didnt get it when my friend hanged himself in 8th grade but I get it now
Put yourself in my shoes. If you had been dealing with the feel of impending doom, feeling like a failure/inadequate, low self esteem and depression since you were 12 and these things just kept coming back no matter what improvements you made in your life, you'd feel hopeless and ready to end it all too. Like, I'll make strides in my life and feel temporarily positive only for the bad feelings and bad mental state to return eventually, and once it returns I cant fight it and it cripples me. Like Kurt Cobain. Overcame a lot in his life, only to keep falling back into the same pitfalls of despair. Edit: My chest fukkin physically hurts from this now
I feel like I'll never be able to overcome it
Ya know what I mean?
Put yourself in my shoes. If you had been dealing with the feel of impending doom, feeling like a failure/inadequate, low self esteem and depression since you were 12 and these things just kept coming back no matter what improvements you made in your life, you'd feel hopeless and ready to end it all too. Like, I'll make strides in my life and feel temporarily positive only for the bad feelings and bad mental state to return eventually, and once it returns I cant fight it and it cripples me. Like Kurt Cobain. Overcame a lot in his life, only to keep falling back into the same pitfalls of despair. Edit: My chest fukkin physically hurts from this now
I feel like I'll never be able to overcome it
Ya know what I mean?
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