My life is bleak, hopeless and lonely. I want it to end so I won't suffer anymore. Nobody cares or loves me no matter how good or kind I am. I can do a million good things and I will never get it back. I don't want a lot nor do I ask a lot. I just don't want to be alone anymore. I just want to somebody to care about me. I have nothing and no one. I'm gonna end this cycle of pain soon.
Youre obviously begging for attention so I'll give it to you
Youre being delusional, how the hell are you going care about someone else if youre not content with yourself and being alone first? Youll just end up heart broken because youre looking at life through rose tinted glasses. You think the grass is greener with friends and a partner/spouse but its a lot of headaches and heartbreak truthfully
Having friends and a partner means occasionally putting them before yourself which is difficult and consuming
If you dont love yourself first you'll end up disappointed and in the same pit of despair that youre in now
Often times the reason for feeling complacent or lack of results is a habit. A bad one at that. You need to change your behavior if you want to attract people
Look up Law of Power 10: "Infection. Avoid the unhappy and unlucky because their negative energy will infect you and bring you down with them." Does this apply to you? Are you bringing people you meet down by talking about the negative consistently? If so, change that. Fake the confidence
How old are you?
Also do you workout at all? Exercise releases dopamine which boosts your mood
You need to change yourself to attract people