I'm cold, possibly the coldest. I don't mean that in a good way. It's too easy for me for cut people off.
I can feel nothing if I choose to. I developed this ability as a way to deal with overwhelming emotion. As a child I was scared a lot so I practiced shutting off feeling.
It's scary because i'll do it for long periods of time and not realize it.
I think I broke myself after losing the baby and two break ups. I couldn't feel that, it hurts to acknowledge that shyt.
My mom called me yesterday. I didn't answer and I considered blocking her number or changing mine. I can't deal with that situation either.
She's really mean and thinks waiting it out will work. Well, I'm really sensitive and some things you can't take back.
If someone hurts my feelings, which is hard to do, I can never interact with them again.
I don't care what people call me it's the motivation behind what the words that hurts my feelings.
I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. It just happens, I'm willing to apologize though. Guilt is a shytty feeling. I hate it like I hate fear.
If someone doesn't know they crossed the line and isn't willing to make it right fukk that person.
I'm hella arrogant but I know shyt is bigger than me so its weird to me that normal people can be so retarded when it comes to apologizing.
Pretending something happen will result in me pretending you don't exist. If I recognize that person does exist I feel nothing but hatred for that person.
I'd rather feel nothing at all.
Beef is eternal on my side.
